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star models 2009!

2009-04-15T06:03:00.001-07:00

my voting link is finally out!

http://www.bareonline.sg/index2.html

must support me! i am f12 (:

and, the vote casting system updates everyday, so vote for me everyday! lollol. get ur fwends to vote too ((:

btw, i tink i look so fierce in the pictures, plus my flabby arms ish so obvious in the full length pic ._.
its reali tyme for me to slim down ):

2009-03-31T01:26:00.000-07:00

i am going taiwan tmr!i am going taiwan tmr!i am going taiwan tmr!i am going taiwan tmr!i am going taiwan tmr!i am going taiwan tmr!i am going taiwan tmr!i am going taiwan tmr!i am going taiwan tmr!i am going taiwan tmr!i am going taiwan tmr!i am going taiwan tmr!i am going taiwan tmr!i am going taiwan tmr!i am going taiwan tmr!i am going taiwan tmr!i am going taiwan tmr!i am going taiwan tmr!

and dear is so EMO, he nearly didnt want to sent off!

and ken just told me he couldnt go to taiwan!

was shocked, it was lky so last min tink ya knw. and lky wad he says, less one ppl, less the fun.

haiz. lets hope it turns out he was kidding and he will be there tmr. LOL.

else, euu gota waste 400 sgd =/

but he was being so calm, =// hmmm.

YAY!

here's my flight tyme:

1350 (SIN) - 1830 (TPE)

say hello tuh taiwan, and gdbye sin (:

okkays. gorta gggo.

meeting dear for Rojak session at tpy,

and then off to Edgemedia for some theory lesson.

THEORYYY~

sianns half.

2009-03-27T23:09:00.000-07:00

finally, i had my blogskin changed. and this, can be viewed in firefox alrdy. the previous blogskin created such a scene in firefox. =/

few days more and i will be heading to taiwan. should i be excited or depressed?, will i enjoyed it? .. i dont know.

maybe due to the fact that, i am spending money away and not earning?
signn, nvr mind, i tink i shouldnt think so deep though, since mic says so, haha, and else i wouldnt enjoyed my trip at all.

luggaged pack, and currency is going to be changed today. and gf, dont wry, i am sure to bring back good stuffs for euu though euu cant go with me. (:

and did i say i wont go back into the modelling world again? ...well, i am into it, yet again.
maybe prior to the hunger for money, or for the sake of taking photos, it doesnt really matters to me. Currently working under the Edgemedia instead of M5, i do hope that Edgemedia will bring me to a greater height! ((:

i think i did something that even i myself couldnt believe it..
i actually joined a pagnent held by EdgeMedia., well, its actually a upcoming contest called the 'Star Models', and i had yet to know about the prizes or so.
The contest works on a online vote casting system, whereby finalist will be decided upon there.
If euu asked me why i joined, i wld probably tell you, its out of curiosity & .. ITS FREE! =.= haha.
i mean, i wont get or lost anything if i joined, so y nort. HEH, except for some strongbad comments though.

The voting links will be screened once i am notified by EdgeMedia. Plz do do do support!

and a million thanks to bbf and ben, thx for giving me the advices and reali, thx for telling me that, when if any1 wont support, euu guys will support me. i am reali so glad to hear that. THANKYOU!

2009-03-15T03:55:00.000-07:00

seriously, economic crisis are hated. Can you imagine, i am going taiwan, but there is no income..

perhaps i shouldnt go the trip, perhaps i should hab done more to secure my job...dear is so right, why am i always unable to see the big picture.. ):

speechless. once the thought of the trip, makes me feel so burden. i dont wna go fer a trip with tons & loads of spending limit, shopping bans.

oh gosh, yy economic crisis at this tyme, yy do i have to lose the job at this wee tyme, why am i going for the trip at this period. :(

sent so much resume over the past few days, and still, i ended up with no job.hais.

bb all.

2009-01-21T02:55:00.000-08:00

so darn tired after the spring cleaning. had been organising and vacuuming the whole house lky from 9am till nw (7pm), =.= nw i know that it reali aint easy for my mother, who did most of the cleaning usually.zz.

i was initially reali looking forwward to the CNY till the thought of the SWEN test on CHU SAN =( freak. the stupid william hung lecturer actually dun wna let us enjoy the CNY celebration. isnt he a chinese also, he dun uds that studying during cny is totally impossible and nort aspicious merhhhs =( or maybe he ish the type that 'eats potatoes', so dun take cny as a grat event =.=

stupid william hung..stupid william hung..stupid william hung..

and my fwend had just nagged on me again, lky i told her i am nort gna spent on any clothes and accessories again to save formy taiwan trip. and i still contd buying and spending =.=

haiz, temptation are hard to ressist euu know =[ heh.

and i am started to get excited and worried abt the upcoming taiwan trip alrdy. happy coz this is the first tyme i grt to go oversseas with my fwends! worried is becoz i nd to strike up fwendship lky instantly there as i am staying with two girls in dunno T.T

how i hope my gfs will pei me there. =( but they are lky all working,studying,parents disagree...

hais. nvmmm.

oh, and 18/01 was my ys gf bdae! went Mimosa@UN square to celebrate. paid a bomb and the japanese foods was just ok onli =( nort up to my expectation, i still tink sakura & sakae is much mre nicer! =)

ending off with this bouqeot of flower! am so proud of it, coz i arranged and buy the flowers totally by myself =DDD

and now its standing so beautifully at my living room.heh! =D

2009-01-13T06:52:00.001-08:00

i am so happy that my parents finally agreed upon my request to go TW!

=)))))))

school days are hated recently. there's projects/reports & tests that are endless =(

2008-11-19T07:39:00.002-08:00

i am just so fed up with my mother.fancy me gg ard her begging and sheding tears lky a retard, and she wouldnt let me have my way. nvr see someone so stubborn and hot ttempered lky her, even if i pay the trip totally byy myself, and she just wont agreed. keep insisting abt the same lame reasons that she dont know my fwends..why nort sae it more straightforwardly..she just dont want me to get any freedom, tts alll. had listen to my bbfs advice and tried to tok to her nicely and calmly, giving her the assurance she need. but what did i get in the end, a straightforward NO! fook.

2009!

2008-11-19T07:39:00.001-08:00

hokay. i know i am lky a bit too slow to post my 2009 wishings now as its alrdyy Jan 3 alrdyy! but heck, these are my new yrr listings: (((((:

1) my familiy and mr.tan to bbe healthy and harmonious.
2) relationship tuh last.
3) lastings friendship.
4) GPA to bbe improved!
5) earn mre $$ ! :)))

went countdown with classmates at eski bar.btw,eski bar lky totally nort cold to the extend that we need to wear a sweater. =.= maybe its due to...hmmm.too much ppl? plus! my bbf told me that eski bar, uses jugs,cups that is freezing cold to serve...and ends up, no leys...=F saddd*
activities with the guys ended at ardd 2am and after then, i cab home.
currently still waiting for lamp post to send me the pics.

but 31st so early go home slp, beri borrring lorhhhh. and so, went home to changed and chiong down to clubb with my bbfs! :DDDD luckily this tyme, grt tg to bbe my chaffeur, so no need to spend a bomb on the cab fares. heh. so much funn and enjoyment on the 31st! hope that 2009 will be a smooth and fulfilling yrr for me and all!

2008-11-19T07:39:00.000-08:00

had a fucking ridiculous day today. had enough of these childish ways of handling a issue and how well a person can treat ur things.

and hey . i am so happy that i love my newly scratched fone now! =D so creative and sooo. unique. noone get a scratched mark so unique that i had.

if i had offended u in some way,just say it in my face.

tts all.

2008-11-10T04:38:00.001-08:00

no more quarrels, quarrels no more.

and i guess, i pretty much hate block subject nowwww! they are always so packed and xiong.

sssd: week 8 for submission,where i am gona suffer a horrible death from the coding wise, and next weeek will be the written test.HOW FAST! holly.

msid: casestudyby this fri =[

cmsk: interview this thur. =(

conclusion: block subject aint good at all..

whey, dear, rmb the promise euu made todae hurh. k nort forget tyme anymore, let alone forgetting about myy stuffs. and no more gg offline when u are angry..

i am gg to buy a watch for euu, so that euu wun forgrt ur tyme.heh

020307 <33

2008-11-09T06:05:00.000-08:00

if only euu were more senstitive to my needs, if only euu were more thoughtful..
dont tell me that you didnt watch the tyme,
dear, let me ask u this...if u were reali looking forward to sth, will u overlook it?
no, euu will not.
i dont believe that u forgrt until the mutiple endless call i made to u. and u said that u switch ur hp to silent? so it must be so much importance of event to u such that euu switched it to silent and decide to misss my callss?

i am not blaming u for toking with her so long, but..at least be sensitive to my needs? at least keep to wad u promish me? are these way too hard for u to abide?
Enough said, u get to my gist.

love,love will tear us apart again.

Love is like a cigar. It is slow, aromatic, sweet, bitter, cloudy, and most of all, it harms.

and so school starts..

2008-10-21T06:45:00.000-07:00

honestly, i am not very glad with my new schedule. mon - thur (9am - 6pm). just the thought of this, brings me fear and tiredness.

More than anything else, i am afraid that i cant cope with the stress from sschhol works. i knew i am being over concerned and too kan chionggg. but i just knew that i aint going to disappoint myself for allowing myself to feel like a damn tap of broken mess....

************

working environment had not been great recently. politics..rumors..gossips..

Honestly, I'm very disappointed in how you've dealt with everything.

In the midst of all that complexity, there was also inner peace and sheer happiness, while you tried to listen & believe in me, which is also the key reason to why I'm still holding on to this work. i felt that i am a walking contridiction to what i had last said. Honestly, i can just leave if i am unhappy with the job. Yes, i can... but why should i do that if my consience is so clear?

my dear, i know you're tryiing to protect me from any harms..i know i am stubborn..i know it might be hurting to youu..for not taking in your advices at tymes...i aint trying to prove anything by holding on to this job. but i am really not truly to quit any job with my name unclearedd. yea, it may seem that i am a person who like to save 'face' for myself. but seriously, i just dont like my name to be smudged with dirtyness, so much so that even it aint anyone close to me...i still want my name clean...

Amidst being entangled in warped situations, things seem to be charging towards a light; a ray so uncertain yet sure, one that sets my soul ablaze with hope yet ironically brims with ferocious darkness and unfounded fear. No matter what, i am holding on, i wanted to see the truth being surfaces...no matter how long it may takes. i truely believes...it takes time for the truth to surface.. yes. it must be.

my dear friends and boy, i am so happy that after so many things, all of euu still believed and still gave me urs trust. thanks so much for believing in me.

Guilt will always be, by far, the worst emotion to deal with...

At the end of everynight, it is only love that I can't deny.

i am looking forward to nov 1 :)) i am finally visiting singapore flyer for the first tyme, thank you, my dear..

my new found love from Guess. Damn Gucci inspired!

I swear the pictures don't do any justice.. There's only so much photographs could do..

thaank you, dear, for buying that for me secretly.

random post

2008-09-04T23:46:00.000-07:00

supposedd tuhh bbe roamingg ardd bugis now, rather than rotting att home. thks to my collegue flyingg me kite lorrr. lols. btw. bbf was kind enuf tuh ask me go out but i rejectedd. decided tuhh rott at home since i was having instataneous giddyness todayy. bp was left with 82/57. terribly low from the normal range of 130/80. -.-' nvm. maybbe i should just keep onn munching on swtt stuffs to gain bak tuhh blood level. hehehhhs

btw. i am pronounceddd BROKE, after purchasing a sony digital camera. super duper in love with this awfully flawless camera.andd it's RED in color! COOL!

this beauty cost me $499. inclusive of 4gb memory stick, additional 1 litnium battery and those wu eh bo ehhh ie. screen protector, cleanser and the duno wadd tripod stand.

tuhh me, its worth la. coz its worth $599 originally with no extra privileges. :))

somethingg unique abt this is that it grt a 'smile shutter' detection. which means a feature that onli takes pictures when the cam itself detects a smile. (((:

yea lorrr. so currently workingg darn hardd tuh earn money. i am alrdy up till the stage where i forbidd myself to go shoppinggg either online or on the streets to prevent myself from being lured into spendingg again. :(

hopelessly pathetic.

anw. i tink i owe black duck an apology. misunderstoods that nike actually hiring perm. full time instead of temp.full time. in the end, coz him tuh reject esprit, den nw lky jobless? lols. :X

zz.darn darn darn giddy. go slp alrdy. ciaoz!

i do cherish you..

2008-08-18T03:40:00.000-07:00

In my world, before you, i lived outside my emotions.Didn't know where I was going 'Til that day I found you How you opened my life to a new paradise In a world torn by change Still with all my heart 'Til my dieing day..

98 degrees - i do cherish you..

thks fer giving me inn when i am the one in the wrong..

你的好，我会牢牢记得。。

i will cherish euu.

for the rest of my lyfe.

020307 - 17 mmths plus & still countinggg.

Je'taime.

2008-07-14T19:01:00.000-07:00

boringg boring boring..boring... dsag labb session noww. an i aint doing my lab sheets but blogging here. =.=

sianns, monday blues, tuesday are dry, wednesday are a dragg, thurrr is almost there and den wonderful friday =D

and its onli TUESDAY =[[[ sumore todae gorta stay bakk till lky 8pm to complete the mdbs projectt. =(( i seriously tink that mdbs are nvrr endding =[[

ERD diagram, schema, presentationns. =[[

ubber saddeningg. and there are reali alort of projects and lab test piling upp miennn.

opsy --> interview fer grpp report [24/07/2008].

dsag --> labb test [22/07/2008]

mdbs report plus presentation [16/07/2008] :((

wwnk phase 2--> [dunoo when] =.= i gona pinn my hope on yu jian andd mic :X teehee

U.art --> mask. [ 2 weeks from now]

buy seriously mienn. i duno wad to do fer my mask cann =[

i tink if i reali no tyme and no idea wad to dgnnn, i will just pant it wibb redd. =[[

ohh. and i haben postt my mosaic pieces here yet =.= nvmm, next post.

darn lasie recently. lasie to upload pics, lasie fer everytinkk.

tolerating wibb my this lousy nokia duno wad model phone. 2 megapixel plus so normall. =((

me wann smart phone. me wann smart phone. me wann smart phone.=((

abit sien tuh buy iPhone alrdyy. zz. started to ponder whyy so many ppl are crazy over it. its just 2 megapixel, no videocall, no secondary camera. zz

onli plus ptt is tt it is from APPLE company and that it is a uber nice touchh phone.. wibbbig mem. tts all. but big mem = lagg as well ? =))

so whats in mind nw is still G900. i shall go check it out soon. lky this weekend =]]

but the phone abit fatt and normal :( aiyarhh, i am so undecisive larhhs zz

okie okies. gna go boring opsyy lectture noww lerhhs. bb all. (((((:

tiredd.

2008-07-10T06:38:00.000-07:00

lyfe habb been so muchh more busierr since week 11. and i hate it. hate it, hate it!

and ishh all thks tuhh that mdbs =[ and i hate the teacher especially. tt mr quek chin chye. he reali beri chin chye lor, everytink also nvr teach and explain properly 1. stupiddd toottt and lousy teacher. :(( luckily this module grt no exams!

andd i duno waddd is happening recently alrdy... i grt this gurl fwend, that suddenly called me this morning, crying and sobbing lkyy madd. 7am in the morning.. and the outbreak of this horrible news... her husband- to be left her... right after she gave birth to the child.. and that bustardd actually promish to her that he WOULD BE RESPONSIBLE TO MY GURL AND MARRY HER AFTER THE CHLD IS BORNNN..how DARE he just run away lkyy that????

wtfff! i am very very very veryyyy angry la. fark man. this kinda of man, dare to plant their seeds but dun dare to take the responsibility, tmd! add on, when she is 5mths pregnant, kept asking her to go fer abortion and stuffs. wa kaoz. i mean, if euu are nort ready fer it, den what fer go and plant ur uselesss shit inside. arsehole. nort ready fer it, den dun act lky u are a super good guy, promishing this and that to her when she told euu the truth. sumore grt the face tuh ask her, "are euu sure it is mine?", walao ehhhs!! faint* lastly, plz take some safety precautions if euu dun wna endd upp gettting so many troubles fer the gurl and urself. =.=

stupid guy. abortion abortion abortion. is that the onli way that can solve the prob?? for heaven sake, go check upp the wrddd ABORTION, plz knww the EXACT meaning, before u use the wrd so carefreely~! and he can jolly well tell her that "it is accident, a mistake!" piang. well, to me, THIS IS DEFINITELY NORT AN ACCIDENT! EUU TELLING ME THAT PUTTING UR TT SHIT IN IS ALSO AN ACCIDENT ISSIT!

拜托！每一个小孩都是上天给予的礼物，他绝对是上天小心翼翼牵引而来的，绝对不是什么意外。。。!!

darn angry..nort gna write anymore. seriously duno what/how to console her. =((

idiot guy. =[[ irresponsible plusss herless. :((( how can such a beast exists on the huamn planet?!!!!! =[

FireFox Download Day!

2008-06-18T08:07:00.000-07:00

HELLO! today went sch to do my dsag project. did quite a bit today. and i tink that was all because of the presence of my dsag teacher. MR NG CHONG MING!!! i am lky so stuck larh. in the end, he is lky actually doing the whole C# programming codes for me. =.='

and ! ITS Firefox Download Day Today !! =)))
so people! download it and flaunt it by creating a certt for urself! =)) LOL!

link to my certt!: n.n

http://www.spreadfirefox.com/en-US/worldrecord/certificate?participant=Cassandra+Lua+Qin+Yi&state=during

i wonder if this cert can be use as the cert. as a criteria to pass APEL =// lols.

do ur part in helping firefox to set a world record! (((:

click on the image below & it will lead euu to the download page~
onli for a limited period! =)))

cass- exceptiional
020307** ((:
Je'taime~!
lovinggg euu more each & everyy secs :)))

2008-06-15T07:07:00.000-07:00

an update about my worklyfe...hab been working at far east accesories fer the past few daes. kinda lurb ta job. the boss are reali kind and sometymes i get free lunch and dinner u knw. =))) wads mre! ta timing is darn flexible ehh. i can choose when i want to workk. =))) and u knw u knw, the environment is so great la. get to tend ta shop on ur own and try on any accessories lky nobody's business.

the onli disadvantage is that, the mre i try, the mre i get fascinated with the accessories. henceforth, my expenses actually went up! RIDICULOUS. nvr mindded. i gna get numb soon. mre or less i will just get used of being embraced ard shining, sparkling and beautifully engraved accessories! hahaz.

so a lil job intro to those visiting my bloggg. here's the offer:

pay rate: $5.50 perr hourrlyy.
job specs: 18 yrs and above. MUST have retail exp. able to commit on weekends(SAT) is a must. independent!

venue: far east accessories (elitrend) walk in interview. interview thru me during fri/sun. =))

and i tink wearing the toot specs makes me look so smart hokay. looks lky some brainy kids that scores 'A's throughout everyy exams u knwww. and that red shutter specs! a feeling that u r being caged when u are wearing it lorhh =.=

couldnt uds how ppl walk leisurely with this specs, u knww. i grt ta feeling tt u k be knocked dwn by ta car and squashedd flat by wearing it. =.= cant even c properlyyy. lky vision blockeddd hokay! yadayada. but wateva la~ its ta fashion trend to be with that shutter shades and toot specs now. esp. when luo zhi xiangg advertised it so wonderfully on his show abt ta shutter shades. i heard frm my customers tt mr. xiao zhu actually claims that the shutter shades can improve ur visions!

ya lor. so i tink tts y some of the 'no-lyfe ppl' just step into my shop and started screeching "arrghhh!! ttts xiao zhu's specs!!" =.=''

i called them no lyfe coz they are normally abnormal school kids who just wander ard in my shop in bunch, cluttering and quackingg noisily. try and comment on everytink.den giggle giggled and den walk off. =.= tmd. so irritating. mess up all my display sumore. dun uds wads there to laugh at by just trying on shades and bangles? siao mannz~

hokay. nww abt my schhh issue...argh. boring topics. ok.. hmm. in short, projects are all undone.. =.=

opsy -> copy wholesael frm ta net.just hab to polish up i guess?

dsag -> hopelessly undonedd. so plz help me if any1 knws how to do.thk thk thks!

u art -> tyme consuming! and im plain lasie. =.=

hokayhokay. tts all i want to sae in tis postt. will update reali soon? i guess =/

cass - 020307~

jetaime' <33

I AM FAT!

2008-05-22T08:25:00.000-07:00

hokayy. i am fat. with flabby arms tt hab fats tt bounce lky shit. yes.plz laugh. hahaha! =.=

JOEL NEO TIAN SHU. thk you so much fer gibing tt feedback. euu punani nehhenhhs.

moood totally down to the core alrdyy. i swear i am so gna lose weight,i dun cr. T.T

i supposed i nort gna touch any fried or foods that contains high calories until i lose weight!

so mr.tan zi chengg. u gorta pei me gymingg on sat!

went tm todae to hunt fer lei's spec. and i tink nowadays, those eye care centre have reali upgraded their customer service system alort. i was so shocked to realised that one can actually collect his/her specs during the day of purchase. andd! theyy actually onli nd 30mins to have ur specs prepared! This service is such a far cry from what i encounter..which i hab to wait at least 1 week to hav my spec ready for collectionn.

schh lyfe hasnt been great esp. with term test starting on the JUN 2. and this is lky hmms. 2 weeks from nw, i supposed? and i tink i so gna stranger myself fer doing the wrgg part fer my CMSK assignment. shall nort elaborate much abt it. ii shld be redoing a new report...hella crazy. grt lky no ideas wad to do fer another solution.zz

never minded. i tink i shall spent my tyme drilling on my CMSK since i gna releases sch early tmrr! :))

myy motto fer todae and tmr: challenges are to be resolved! :))

gna go slp noww. dun feel lky going fer my u.art claz tmr either.

spending my 1hr journey to sch just to cut and paste and nth else done, sounds so absurd and mundane.

good nite world!~ =))

020307* <33

Je'taime.

2008-05-21T05:47:00.000-07:00

Since 98489 yrs since i last blogg and i tink i am so gna lost ta ability to blogg alrdyy. anw, this few weeks hab been such a torture fer me. all thks to disgustingg hot weather, my sickness just cant seems to heal and yet, new sickness began to developed. hella crazy. and yes, up to nw, i am still with that crocky and ugly vocal cords.

seriously, i tink ta earth is gna explode. it had been so hot and stuffy recently and i felt as if i am in a ultra sauna room once i leave an air conditioned area..

and i am so broke alrdy la. i shldnt hab quit my model job just becuz of losing interest. =.= crap. how i wish i wld just turn bak ta ttyme and contdd my contract. nw i realised its diffiucult to find a PT job thatt suit me. am i too unlucky or wadd? tmd. zz

currently, doing an mosaic art fer my u.art cds. it is ballet resemblance art piece, which i reali lurve!. i will post my mosaic once i finalised it. :)) sch's getting busier i guess, with all the assignments pilingg. and tmr will b ta submission of the draft of cmsk report.

tymes are reali passing fast. up till nw, i have yet to face ta reality of being a yr 2 students and that, term test are just a week frm noww.

looking forwardd to ta 25th of may 2008! tts when my sms will be renew! so yes, i am currently under ta pressure of n0rt sms-inggg. such a torture mann.. i tink i am too used of excercising my fingers concurrently alrdy. and it is so difficult to control my fingers nort to text anytink when it flashes a "new text message received"..

seriously suffering frm tan zi cheng syndrome..

still doesnt feel quite right fer nort miting him during my sch daes tt much anymre.

we merely met twice during the weekdays..

sometymes, i realize...did i reali rely on euu too much alrdyy?

i tink my sufferings fer this disease will worsen whenn mr.tan graduates...

tts all fer todae. off to rush fer my cmsk report. :)

a sincere condolence fer ta victims of china earthquarkes.*

020307* <33

14mths and still counting. :)

i lurve euu fer who euu are. *

euu are my daily dose of happiness!~

2008-03-03T08:33:00.000-08:00

so super mundane and blank w/o deardear that i actually wrote a short st0ry...zz

「你又來了！」中午，我站在學校大門口當交通導護，幫助一年級的小朋友放學。卓新勇的母親，悄手悄腳提著一個便當在校門口。被我一喊，她露出不好意思的表情。「老師！．．．」「哎呀！我不是告訴妳了嗎？學校不喜歡你們替孩子替便當。如果每個媽媽都像妳這樣，學校大門就擠滿人潮，那樣，我們怎麼放學呢？」「我知道！我知道！」哼！知道了還送，簡直是明知故犯。「讓他自己帶便當嘛！」「我知道！我知道！」這些話，不曉得說了幾次。

每次一到中午，送便當的家長和放學的一年級小朋友，常常相撞在一起，造成相當的困擾。卓新勇是一位沈默寡言，乖巧內向的孩子。有次上課，他竟然打瞌睡，我很訝異，把他叫起來。「怎麼了？」他一臉迷惘站起來，不回答。第二天上課，也是這樣，我實在受不了，狠狠地把他叫過來。「你到底怎麼了？」我已經累得半死，口氣已經控制不住。突然，他垂頭淌下淚水。我暗自一驚。「說呀！到底為什麼上課要打瞌睡呢？」「我媽媽住院了！昨天一直在醫院陪她。」我一聽愣住了，頓時，心中的怒氣消失了，代之而起的是無限慚愧。「她怎麼了？」他難過搖搖頭。「不知道！」晚上，我打電話到他家。接電話的是他父親。「她為什麼住院呢？」「是肺癌！」我一聽，心都涼到腳底。腦子浮現身體贏弱的卓新勇。如果，不幸那天來臨，他將如何繼續往後漫長的歲月呢？想到這兒，不禁鼻酸。吃飯時，妻子在餵兒子吃飯，我不禁想起，以前卓新勇的母親偷偷摸摸替他送便當。

第二天下班後，我騎著機車到醫院探望他母親。幾個禮拜沒見，卓新勇的母親瘦得不成人形，蒼白的臉，光禿的頭，簡直不敢相信就是她。她看到我，顯得很驚訝，努力想站起來，但是，一咳嗽，整個人歪了一邊。「不要站起來！不要站起來！」「老師！謝....謝謝你！」她吃力喊著，眼眶消出淚水。在醫院的走廊，卓新勇的父親對我說：「只剩下兩個月了！嗚！我﹍真的不得要怎麼辦？」他老淚縱橫。

回到學校，報告校長。「他爸爸已經六十多歲了，現在母親又將離開人間，是不是我們可以發動全校募款。不管多少，都可以幫助他。」校長爽快答應。經過幾天募款活動，我們總算募到五萬二千一百二十元。把錢送到醫院時，卓新勇的母親已經陷入昏迷中。「我們準備今天送他回家！」卓新勇的父親，臉形憔悴得發白。「老師！能不能幫個忙？」我一聽，心頭抽搐一陣。「請說！我能夠做到的，我一定答應。」「他前幾天，一直拉著卓新勇的手，喊著：媽媽不能再替你送便當了！我想，請老師再讓他送一次便當，只有送便當時，他才真正感受到一位母親的榮耀。」聽到這兒，我百感交集地點點頭。

中午，一輛救護車呼拉拉開到學校大門口。卓親勇的父親和一名醫護人員，推著擔架上的人。我淚水盈眶，站在旁邊，伴當交通導護老師。「到了！到了！」卓新勇的父親買了一個便當，躺在擔架上的卓新勇的母親，伸出瘦細蒼白的手，提著便當，在旁邊人員推送下，慢慢靠近大門口的鐵門。在鐵門的另一邊，卓新勇則伸出右手，接過母親的便當。「媽！」卓新勇嚎啕大哭。這時，我清楚見到她母親瘦削的臉頰，抽搐了一下，彷彿想說話，但是，又說不出來。「媽！我不要！我不要妳走！」卓新勇呼天搶地叫著。我的淚水，再也控制不住，嘩嘩而落。我暗恨自己，以前是多麼殘忍！卓新勇的母親出殯後。一天，卓新勇的父親來到我辦公室，遞給我一包牛皮紙。「老師！這是你和學生們幫助我的錢，我認為還有更多的學生，需要這筆錢，所以，還給你們。謝謝你熱心幫忙。」說完，錢一放，就掉頭離去。這筆錢彷彿生熱似，直燙著我心坎。

我天天找卓新勇聊天話家常。深怕他經不起喪母的打擊。「老師！你放心！我很好！你不要一直替我擔心！」卓新勇對我說。「我很早就知道，我母親就要死了，我也不是不想聽你話，叫媽媽不要送便當。因為，一天當中，只有中午，我才能吃到我媽媽煮的飯。」我心頭一凜，「為什麼呢？」「爸爸心疼她太過勞累，故都親自下廚，媽媽也因為小孩想吃她做的便當，所以就利用爸爸上班期間偷偷的做便」說完，卓新勇淌出淚珠。

2008-03-03T08:06:00.000-08:00

12mn now. am neither tired or boring. i missed my deardear so hella much. that baddie. =[

ask me dun go thailand. stay in sg to pei him. in tuh end, went to join AMAZING RACE wib his fwends. anddd.. that amazing race event actually last fer 4 days cann. TnT..

okaie, hell.. why cant ta earth just spin faster? TnT.

i wanted so much to meet my deardear...lky real soon. !

btw. fyi. 'amazing race' was a event conducted by tp's ENG sch....=[[

conclusion: their so called 'amazingg race' makes me ridiculously uberly sad...

to tha point that i even grt stomach upset.:( crap. even my stomach is upset w/o deardear by my side.:(

andd..i hate that i love you so much. to the pt that i will miz u once you're nort by my side. :(

wa.. i sounds so much lky a demanding gf? a gf that like to stick lky UHU glue to her bf?:( or perhaps a gf that lkys to tie him dwn? or perhaps a gf that is selfish and stingy to ta extend that she get upsets when her bf leaves her for a 'MERE' 4 days? :(((

;( i hopfully dun wana be this crazy hella sort of gf laa.:( but what to do? :( tts i said, I HATE THAT I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! :(

TnT i cant even imagine wad i'll b lky if bf go int0 army:(

i wld prolly ask him to ransack me and i will hid quietly in dere?:(( or maybe, i'll be lky MULAN?

mayb yes? YES? i shalll do lky how MULAN mingles ard in ta army? :DD

yadayada. i tink i am going crazy soon....

I HELLA MIZ BF! TnT wa.........

the earth is utterly unfair. :(

it spins so fast when i am wib deardear.

and then, it actually spins so super duper uber slowly when bf is nort by my side.:(

*slapslap earth.

2008-02-11T06:15:00.000-08:00

sien mienn. monday blues again. CNY so fast over le larhh. sienns. im lky still in a holiday mood while my exams are nearing.

how dead can i be?

seriously, i dont have any mood to reali prepare myself for ta exams. come to the worse, i tink i m doing much more worse den wad im used to be in my studies.

and now, i even have to sat for a re test for my fndb lab test. wala. dunoe wad im doing alrdy. aint studying and scoriing up to my standard anymore. i reali reali hate myself to be llkyy that.

how am i suppose to reach my goals if i contd to slack this wway? hais. i tink it's reali time for me to settle myself down and think of what i shld reali do. :(

i dont want to disappoint myself once again and den repent on my mistakes when i received my exam results. ( just lky wad i did for my term test).

i know i wont hab anyone to rely on, other den deardear to console me.

noone will listen to my grumbling or waddd.. for this, im sure...

so.. for wad deardear did for me, i reali appreciated it.. (:

so no more online shopping & computing once i hab reached hme.
gorta keep to my scheduled tasks.

yadayada.

so yea, i will study hard, and listen well during lectures!

JIAYOUU TO ME & DEARDEAR..

MUST DO WELL FOR OUR EXAMS OKIE!

and i tink i found myself a great DEAL!!

tenchi comics actually buy used original CDS/VCDS/DVDS/COMICS/GAMES.!!

yayness* >.<

i grt lky so many of those unwanted VCDS, CDS and comics stacking up in my room la?!

WOOTS! i gorta call on every outlet to check and sell dem awae!! teehesss! >w<

oh, and i visited deardear's auntie house last saturday.

met his parents, cousins , auntie and nieces.

and i find that they are reali nice ppl ! LOLS. nort as worse as i thought la.

took some pictures but didnt get hold of any. LOLS. nvr ta mindd..

on, dgn project this fri, and im less den half done. zzz.

2008-01-30T07:31:00.000-08:00

OH YESHH! i finally found out HOW TO EDIT AWAY THE RACHEL!~

* crocking lky a toad nw* xDDD

teeheeess~!

qy ish a genius! >.<

eeyers. sianns. tmr grt fndb lab test. =[

nvr study leys. =[[

aiyarh, since it is open book test. den i tink dun study also nvm barhs? :X

eeks. and i grt 1 mre dgn project to go.

sians larhs. i tink this cds beri tyme consuming and money consuming mann...

im lky keep printing the works over & over & over again..

i tink i visted the printshop 9584745 tymes since the start og this dgn cds. =[

until the auntie also knw me alrdy. =[[

this is so badd.

and! and I SERIOUSLY TINK THAT online shopping IS HIGHLY ADDICTIVE!

i just kept clicking & clicking & clicking again, buying non-stop.

how i hope i hab a money copier at hme. xDDD

that wld makes my lyfe so much easier...teehees.

realised that i reali spend alort on online shopping lorh. and! mostly bought on impulse!

my wardrobe gna explode alrdy.TnT

and most of those dresses and tops are at most wore lky 2 tymes?

im so dead. =[

bb all.

gg to do on my dgn project again. haiz.

mic: aiyarh. blogg colorful den interesting marhs.

whr will difficult to read?

i knw! must be ur duck eyesight CMI liao.

fyi: cmi --> cannot make it!

2008-01-28T01:29:00.000-08:00

eeyers. sian la. reali mon blue mann..

and i actually need to be rushing my dcnk project nw de. and here im, blogging, watching shows, listening songs, eating snacks..

oh mien, i m gna suffer the consequences later le.

and i tink i hab to hide all my snacks. im gainning weight larh! 1kg heavier alrdy u knw!~ SOBBS!

deardear FAULT! EVERYTYME ASK ME to eat eat eat! T.T c la, die liao lar! T.T

nort fair wan!

eat the same amt of food, den i gain weight & u didnt! TnT.

utterly nort fair cann!

argh! im fat! :(

and, i dno reali know how to do my dcnk proj. larhs... cant believe that i still so RELAX...

still dare to slack. wad a PRO me.

yadayada. it is such a miricle to actually see me updating my blogs so frequently..;X

aiyarh. cosh im in lurbb with this blogskin la! so nice larhs >m<

onli tink that spoils it is that "RACHEL" header on the top left. :(

i cant seem to edit it away .T~T

todae finish sch @ 2pm. cus fndb lec was re schedule to wed 4-5 pm.TT

WA! cannort mit deardear again la! oh mienn.. siannnss..

SOBBS!

sian dao'edd.tmr dcnk lab test. still okaie larh. grp work, so can rely on each others.

but i dun wish tmr lab test ish grp according to reg. num nerh. cus i dun wan to be wib........:X

yadayada.. =[

aiyarh. nvm. at least todae sch lyfe mre kind to me le. nvr kena black faced anymore.

>m<

and i tink i look lky a monster nw. my nose makes me looks lky a dumbo with a huge red dot!

and joel, DUCK and kenvin being so unkind la TnT! they sae my nose show that my centre of gravity beri good. T.T

so badd lorh. bei ai~~ T.T

im so looking forward to my RAINDOW SAT la!

i wan go shoppiiinggggggg~~~ xDD

and im so gna slp early tmr and wake up on tyme on wed. no mre late records plz.

if nort, i have to go take MC again. wala!

eeyers. gna b 6pm nw le. =[

beta go do my dcnk alrdy.

i duno how to do. T.T

bb everyone!

2008-01-27T05:51:00.000-08:00

oh mann. its mon again in a few hours time.

though nex week grt onli 1 project submission. but i still dun lky schh la. =[

oh mienn. y must weekends alwaes pass so quickly. xC

hais. and sch lyfe been so unkind nowadaes. dno wad to sae..

i just felt so sians when it is sch dae. =[

siann daooz.

project project project.

test test and mre test..

and nw exams coming on the wayy.

i hate it hate it hate it..

screw the person who implemented tests & exams! :C

and i was so suay last week.

mon > chiong cmsk until lky 4.30am in the morn. den chiong fndb until 7.45pm in sch.

wed >

1. supposed to wake up @ 7am for to go fer my 9am tut claz cum claz test!. but i slp till 9.30am.TnT.

2. i was so stupid that i actually chiong to claz at tt DOTTSS hr. reaching sch at 9.56am.

took the paper and anyhow scribble(didnt study at all cann)!

3. this was the 3rd tyme i was late, so kena onli a P/F grade no matter how hard i worked fer tt module.

4. initially tot gna stay for the SOCIO project wib team mates. so delibrately pon 2 impt lec. claz to take MC. (to cover for my lateness).

5. reach tampines poly clinics @ 1pm sharp. (and i dno i SUAY or wad, so concidental and SO ZHUN, all the doctors went for lunch!!!! (luckily..LEI PEI ME!) warh. i swear tt was the onli lucky tink tt happen to me tt pathetic week!) if nort i will have to find my way dere lky..=[

THKS TO LEI! for accompanying me all the wae!

6. so bo bian lor. waited and waited and waited.

7. registration tyme! forgrt to bring my pink MC , and i was overcharged fer lky 3 TIMES derr actual rate ! T.T oh miennn..

8. rush all the wae back to sch again to mit up for project. AND, all went hme.

at tt pt of tyme, i reali feel lky exploding alrite?

i mean is lky mayb tell me earlier v are nort miting or wad? so i k dun nd to pon lec to get MC ?

(and i heard last week FNDB lec was impt.)

if tell me earlier, i wld have went for lec and den go polyclinic after sch? and den there wun be unnecessary misunderstandings and black face?

9. ended up i was so flared up that i fa***ed at hm. =.=''

10. ended up in hosp. extra medication again.S.U.A.Y

thur > suay until sch com also want to go againest me. screwed oopg sumore. AND actually can sneak to see some solutions i have on hand and on the com de. BUDD TT YUTAO sat beside me. TnT ................

fri > dno ate wad. lai sai maddness~ .~.~'' onli happiness is weekends approaching and k mit deardear!

eeyers! i was reali so suay TT WEEK okaies. S.U.A.Y!

dno wad to sae also. DOTS DOTS DOTS! xC!

dun why tinks can turned out this way also.

i knw it ish childish to be in this situation becus of this project but...

it goes beyond my means also larhs.

siann dao'edd. this screws my sch lyfe so much..RAAA*~!

but SAT beri happy. went shopping with deardear! finally bought my CNY shoes! n.n

i tink horh. deardear grt so impatient wib me alrdy. c0sh i grt so many expectations for my shoe.=X

and i bought and spent so much more on others unexpected items. ie. mascara, mini dress...

oh mienn. looking at the rate im spending my money. im gna go broke alrdy. xC

ate RAMEN TEN @ far east fer dinner. and i turned into DONALD DUCK after eating it. =[

all becus of tt ramen la. i tink the chef was in a bad mood tt dae, cush it was hellllaaaa SPICY! omg. we turned into GUAN GONG after eating. =.= face redd redd. and my lips was actually swollen and with BURNING REDDNESS. the most NATURAL LIPSTICK i have miennn.=[

$30 billed by deardear. =/ aiyarh. treat u movie nex week lurhhs. =p

eeyers. i m so looking forward to nex SAT! i wan go shoppinggg with deardear

and i tink guy's apparels are reali expensive and lky hard to hunt for. all so beng and nort creative. =/

conclusion: gurls beta. at least grt so much varieties. sumore much much muchh affordable okaies. =DD

aiyarhs...EARTH! TURN FASTER CANN. TURN THE TIME TILL NEX SAT AND STOP THERE FOR 1 WEEK cann? =[

and nex week ish our happy 11 month eh! >.< !

oh mienn. cant wait cant wait.

oh earth. SPIN SPIN SPIN FASTER!!!

and i so want to change my blogskin! T.T

this blog skin no achieve, the date and tyme also nort accurate wan.=[

2008-01-20T06:23:00.000-08:00

been thinking alort this few daes. and i dont know whys.

im missing tthe old times, as a child with no worries. and everytink seems so perfect and peaceful.

im missing the smile that i once wore.
and seriously im curious. what am i nw if im still single.
how will i be if i am still barred from knowing the painful truth of my blood relations.

im nort implying that i regret of going into a relationship and stuffs.
i still love my boi wholeheartedly . and the feeling had never change.

i just dont know whys...

im missing the daes..
when i hold on tightly to my mommy hand while i was learning to walk...
when i hold my parents as role model to follows...
when my mommy sang lullaby for me..

im missing the daes when i was reali so innocent as a kid..where nth will bothers me.

its reali stress to lead ur life trying to accomplish endless goals in your life...
and i reali hope that i was born in a deserted corner..somewhere on the earth..
where there are no technology advancement, no quarrels, bustles of traffics,nothing..

i want a corner where there is only me and the nature.
it will be beautiful.
there will be peace surrounding me.

been thinking back of my past relationships..
and i actually smiled..
im shocked that i actually had fond memories for my every single 4 relationships.
looking back at every single moments i spent with my exs.. the promises they made to me (which is nvr truthful), the sweet old tymes when they were trying to court me up till the tyme when everytink comes to an end.

it can be painful.

and i think boys can get reali cute and honker bonkers when they are trying to court a girl. and it can be reali hilarious.

all these will remain as a fond memories...
that is, mayb somedae when im old, i would sit by alone, and tot of every single beautiful relationships that i had in my life...

im reali glad that my current love isnt as unkind as the previous.
and im seriously holding on to this relationship so carefully that i actually prayed for it to be everlasting..

im so scared that i will fall apart again.

but the conclusion ish..

i wont ask for everlasting. ..
but i just want us to be happy..

no matter what, let us promise that we will be friends even if we are falling apart. :)
and it is a must.

for now. i love u, my boi.
im looking forward to our first year anniversary.

9 months of love! =D

2007-12-01T09:24:00.000-08:00

o2 - 12 - 2007

oh gosh, 1.30am nw. i just wanted to sae that ...

i love euu my boi! :)

happy 9months !

purposely blogg this separately from my previous post. =p

lets hope that this month will run smoothly fer us.

no mre meaningless quarrels plz. it reali means nth but hurts each other mre.

my love, let us treasure this beautiful relationship.. no mre hurtful words to slash each others feelings and emotions.

baddie you. tmr happy 9mths still want to work. sho late den cann see you la.

hmpf. punch u hard hard*

im so looking forward to seeing you tmr. (:

i love euu

i love euu !

and i mean forever. =p

人吵架的時候，什麼最重要？驕傲？自尊？面子？輸贏？

這些都不重要最重要的仍然是你心愛的那個人最重要的仍然是你們這份得來不易的感情本來在愛情裡，不管是爭執或衝突，只要最後能協調、能化解就好了，哪有什麼贏者或輸家真要爭誰贏誰輸，誰有面子誰又低聲下氣，最後賠上的只是這份感情，誰也沒贏~~實際上是兩敗俱傷~~有沒有想過，爭吵的目的是為什麼？其實不是單純的為了道理講理，而是對方不肯讓你，男生女生亦然，因此爭吵到了最後其實早已偏離主題，而是為了賭一口氣。好大的一口氣，代價不貲。和好的時候，才體認出那些，淚也白流了，氣也白生了，是何必？還是活該？

人生氣的時候，什麼狠絕的話都說的出來，什麼惡毒的事也做的出來。但有情人生氣的時候，也必定保有溫暖的情懷，就看妳看不看得出來而妳看不看得出來，就看妳了不了解他，信不信任他。生氣時不說氣話也不做惡事，真的很難，但起碼要學會退而求其次，懂得從中去感受原本就存在於兩人間的情意，不消太多腦力，其實只要用一點心，有愛情的時候，其實什麼都好談，但一般人不易發現，也不太會利用這個道理。希望每個人都能珍惜自己所擁有的情緣, 不一定是愛情記得有一句話：「世界上有千萬種藥,就是沒有後悔的藥」真的！後悔也沒有用了....... 與大家共勉之 ........千萬不要拿一份真情賭氣，那是非常不值得的

【沒有解決不了的問題，只有不肯面對的人】

& sometymes i was reali thinking of the reasons of our quarrelling that almost push us off the wall. was it becus of the fact that we are both too stubborn to let each other in or was that we are holding on to the matter too much ?

reali felt so giddy nowadays, dunnoe le.

mayb i overworked myself or sth..

my blood pressure is onli left with 89/53.

whereby normal blood pressure should run 180/80.

that was so lower den average..

T.T giddy giiddyy..

good night everyones.~

& to my special one: swt dreams! dun dream of zombie again!

nights~ mwaks.

happy happy 9 months =D

2007-12-01T09:09:00.000-08:00

since 9745972529844 yrs since i update my blog. almost collecting dusts alrdy. i grt loads of tinks to sae la . okaies, start with the gathering at duno how many weeks back.

omg. look at the hell loads of foods that we consumed.

Seoul Garden @ Bugis Junction.

and we hab so much fun tyme eating and chatting. reali a good catch up of our daily lives. so glad that gf finally graduated from her ITE. :) another stepping stone completed. but kinda of wierd, she quitted her attachment at charles & keiths. =.= which is.. as good as failing her final yr projects? oh well...

okaies. tt malay family dere is reali darn hilarious okaies?

they are actually having MIXED FOOD RICE @ seoul garden okaies?!

no joke! kaoz. if it's nort tt norbitss blocking my view. i wld hab taken a evident photo alrdy. zz

1 big plate of rice with those side dishes lky pre-cooked vege & meats. oh gosh!

shan, me and tk went lky ERHEM. " came seoul garden fer just plainly mixed food rice?"

weeks back, there is this small lil waffles , ice cream stall set up at IT school!

they are having quite a good biz though!

taadahh! this was the outcome. mango ice cream on waffles! =D tasted normal but the waffle was lky CRISPY! $3 fer such a big plate is worth la. aha.

hais. kind of having reali packed schedule nowadays? design project submission was reali going down hard on me. caused me slpless nights every now and den. i so gna die of tireness.

and sometymes i reali went blank fer hours, gazing at the magazines. simply cant get any ideas or inspirations to come out with my 6 sketchs, which must b a combinations of the 1900s fashions and modern fashion.

the good tink is, i m finally done with my sketchs with the sacrifice of my beautiful slp. zz. all the panda eyes, eyebags, pimples and watsoever are taking their revenge on me alrdy. =(

i think im so gna look so much older becus of all those horrible and unkind projects.

so sad la, i can alrdy foresee that im gna hab a slpless nite on the coming thur again!

colouring of my sketches nort done. which i think this will take me 86546 yrs to do it as i hab totally no ideas how to mix and match the cols .esp. the shades and skin tone fer darker 3D effects. hella dead*

and there is this UNKIND socialogy class test bumping into my tighhttt schedule ! the horrible part was that it covers such a huge range of topics which i had yet to digest the information. PROJECTS + CLASS TEST + TERM TEST .. how bad can it be.

how many slpless night must i sacrifice to juggle all these things . and i hab these 2 ballet claz. which frm nw, i m to take charge of. every mon, tue & sat* . oh goshh. it seems lky the 24 hrs of tyme a day is nort enuff fer me. tt was crazy..!

enuff of all those horrible school works. speaking of my online spree. im lky spending a bomb on it la? l0ls .but okaie la, thinking that i grt 9874763 yrs didnt go shopping wib my gfss alrdy.

conclusion: online shopping is reali easy and convenient la. esp, fer ppl lky me, who is alwaes rushing after tyme, having no tyme to enjoy shopping physically.=.=

but the goods can reali take billions yrs to arrive? i order the items from those taiwan spree during late oct and till now, the items haben arrive... diaoz. oh wells.

never the mind. considering that it takes take to fly to sg.. ==.

omg. freaky. my post was lky so longg winded cann... okaie okaies. i shall nort bored my reader to death la. im alwaes so kind de okaies~~~ blahhhhhs =pp

shall end off wib this 2 pics. which i promish deardear to lky upload it fer lky 43457257 yrs ago. im so sorry fer delaying it. haha.

can anyone see anytink going wrgg at this 2 pics? =3

ITS A CLOSED 7 ELEVEN duhhs~

have anyone see a halfclosed/ closed 7 eleven convenient in sg b4?

kind of rare hurhs...

booyarh! some sort of "24 hr convenient store" they are.

byes everyone!

2007-10-23T02:41:00.000-07:00

darn long long tyme nvr post.

recently, reali loads of happenings ard me ...

jun quitted school.

endless quarrels wib deardear

andd...

just received a bad news. my cousin just passed away.. suicidal.

speechless. shall i or should i say that she was too arrogant ?

she alwaes deem that tinks would go her way... and nw .

ish onli a small lil problem that she was facing, and she committed suicide.

17 years oldd. reali youngg.

mayb ish becosh we 2 hab reali bad temper barhs. stubbornn..

reali hab to cut the tymes of quarrellingwib deardear alrdy.

we started not to knw wad we are torking to each other wen we are arguing and quarrelling.

harming each other ...

dear..

sorry fer being aggressive at tymes.

sorry if i hab given u the idea that i wasnt even care abt ur being..

i just didnt want to give u the burden of askingg u tinks here and there..

which seems that i m doubting u or controlling euu..

i didnt thought that u will hab the idea that i dont care about u at all.

sorry fer giving u the wrgg idea.

how wld i nort even care abt u..?

10 mre daes . =)

looking at the situation nw..

we can onli see each other fer twice in a week .. so sad rites?

haha. mayb that will let us cherish each other mre wen we are tgt. (=

will miz euu reali badly. ^^

andd. realisedd sth. my hpp alwaes grt. surprising and random pictures that are NOT taken by me. LOL. =.=

photographyy by : one of the unknown morons!

andd. i realised sthh. ah lei beri act nerhs. he goes , " aiya, dun take pictures of me larhs."

wen we flash the camera in front of him..

but.. the contridicting part is?

...he pose, smiling and looking at the camera.

ready fer the shoot anytime . =.=

ohh my tiann~.

ohh. kinda disappointed of wad i grt fer my CDS ?

hoping to get a language de.

either french or jap.

so gd narhs.. mic . joel & lei grt intu the french class.. envyy**

and that donald duck & mojo started to throw french at me..

zz. daoz~

never the mindd. i swear i sure gna get either 1 of the languages in the next sem.

shall chopped and slash the person if he/she post me to others CDS. hmpf~

so i gna hab socialogy andd 20th century fashion this sem.

so gna die?

cosh i cant reali draw? LOL.

awws.

ooh ya. i m so nort happy of the modules i gna take this sem. =[

fndb, dcnk --> advanced carc.

oopg--> advanced prsp.

awws. prsp & carc was my weakest.

andd nw.. advanced... T.T

i m starting to hate ppl scolding "omfg" alrdy..

diaoz.

how u gna f god? =.=

okaies. i knw ish onli lky sae fer shuangg.

but.. ting le jiu bu shuangg. hmpf**

ish lky suchh a condemn to the godd.

found this 3 pictures while browsing through my hpp.

tt was taken on the last dae of our wds claz. =)

i lurb the 3rdd pic the most. =D

so cool~ ^^

shall endd off with this picture.

taken during the morons chalet. ^^

my off is finally here! =D

2007-09-30T12:08:00.000-07:00

it's lky so long since i hab my off day again ? yea, and i mis morning shift.T.T

dunnoe y larhs. alwaes so suay de. kept on getting afternoon shift. :(

whatsoever larhs. since tmr is my off, then no work issue will b brought upp. :)

andd. the bad weather. hmpf. hai me get flu again.. dorts. im lky just recovered frm it de larhs.wth. =/

my schedule fer tomorrow is kinda full!

hab to wake up at 7 am to get prepared to get dwn to fort canning park dere!

booked a studio in there to practice my ballet move. =)

i just hab a special feeling developed fer that place.

mayb it's becus of its serenity and peacefulness.

nort forgetting that it is spacious!

hahas. and after that.

shall head dwn to clarke quay to get sth fer deardear to eat. :)

and next. hab to reach outram park, NDC by 2pm..

hab a dental appt.

but. tink i still wun b able to remove my braces yet. :(

awws. tt basket dentist. he is lky alwaes telling me that i can remove my braces on my next visit and stuffs.

but, it never ever comes true. :( s0bbss.

dorts. dunnoe to head dwn to my dental first or to clarke quay first.

if i go fer my dental first. tink by den i reached clarke quay.

deardear wld hab been straved to death alrdy. LOL

imagine a skeleton managing the shopp. omgg.zz

see first barhs. if the tyme permits. shld b gg dwn to clarke quay first barhs. :)

and after all that, go back to my studio again!

yay. tmr will be a training dae to brush upp my flaws on my dance stepps. =)

finally. shall end my dae by miting deardear at tampines interchange at 9.30pm tmr !

LOL. my whole dae is lky all planned out liao ..

..there goes my off dae.

no tyme to slpp late late , slack and stuffs..

went to watch a movie ytd nite at bishan wib deardear.

"i now pronounce you chuck and larry" hahas. great comedy movie.. torking abt gays. LOL
suits you yea!

donaldd duck aka gayshit.? =X

LOL.

movie rating: 3 out of 5 .

comedy rating: 4 out of 5 .

hahas.onli gave it 3 out of 5 as i find it abit draggy when it comes to the ending of the movie?

abiit too longg larhs. 155 mins. omgg.

my butt is lky rotting inside alrdy la.

but hab to admit sth.

i do hab a short attention spann.

LOLS.

even though it is a good movie.

but too long winddedd.. =p

sumore my nose was lky a running tap water lky tt. u knw wad i mean. =.=

zzz.

so irritating..

but overall. it's worth to watch. :)

omgg. its 4am in the morning alrdy.

i so gna b nagged by deardear ..

promished him to go to bed lky dunno how many hrs ago?.

hmms. =3

oh well, at least i m honest enuf to admit la horh. =x

okies okiess, shall end off my post wib this! ~

my lovely daisy `~

it was given by a person promoting the defense againest HMV disease.

it definitely brighten upp my dayy wib these lil flowers . =D

i'm sure it bounds to bring everyone a smile when each was distributed one. :)

okaies. good nights worldd.

i onli left lky 4 hrs to slp now?

oh goshhh...

2007-09-27T10:59:00.001-07:00

yay. finally, the moron 6 chalet is settled. 10 of oct. =DD

so morons! must turn up yea. stay overnight too!

sians. ish lky so longg nvr mit upp wib those morons lerhs. LOL. anw. nd to apologise to both lei and deardear..

i was lky so darn late fer the miting upp. 1hr plus plus late to mit up wibb lei..

hahas, causing him nort being able to go work on tt dae. =F

sowii sowii .>.<

dorts . basket gf. she acually presented this to me !

that's so nort true larhs . T.T

there are tymes that i m punctured de lorh. =F

submitted my leave application to my manager for approval lerhhs. sians, machiam still lky schooling or wadd lky tt, still need to submit wad leave application . they tink working in zara is office work issit.. diaoos. so troublesome.. :(

hope they will approve it barhs.

else, i reali dun nd to go fer both mic and morons 6 de chalets lerhs.

aww.. =(

duno whys. todae seems to be kind of bad fer me.

badd dreamms .

bad mood.

bad weather.

bad tyme management.

hais. sadded.

tmr working afternoon shift again. hais. wth. how come ish lky i alwaes kena afternoon shift de. =(

though hab the privilege to slp longer. but just the thought of spending the whole AFTERNOON, evening and night at zara kills me alrdy. =[

never the mind. gna quit soon anw..

just waiting fer my cert.

and.

waiting fer tyme to pass nias .

nth memorable fer me dere.

ohh my godd. 2.30am. T.T

i beta go slpp lerhs ..

though i m lky still so awake..

zzz..

okays..

nites worldd.

<33

random post.

2007-09-25T20:14:00.000-07:00

LOL. yarhs. blogg rotting lerhs . it's lky so long since my last post. =D

supposedly, this week will be my favourite week barhs. cus i grt 2 off and no FULL in my work schedule. hahas.

gort 2 sets of uniform from zara on tuesdae. realised something, the staffs dere are reali rather kiddy.. they simply get so over excited over the new uniform. wth..

everyone was lky laughing by themselves. =.= never the mindd...

and, the cutting for the pants and whatsoever in zara are so huge..! i mean, the length...

i seriously nd to cut awae lky duno how many inches from the original length of my uniform pants just to fit in on me..

oh yea, i looked so macho when i wear the blazer they provided. looked so wierd wierddd. broad shoulders. =F

random pics taken at my work place.=D

ooh, and ytd was mid autumn festival. :)

went to celebrate it wib my childhood fwends.

since so long since i ever took a lantern and walk ard lky a lil kidd. hahas.

fond memories. :)

duno whyys. seems to enjoy the festive celebration of mid autumn festival. i lurb the beautiful lanterns that are carried ard by those lil kids. they are alwaes so colorful . a very beautiful sight. :)

and, nort to forget. the mouth watering mooncakes, a great delicacies to enjoy when u r wib ur fwends..:) i simply enjoy the part and parcel of mid autumn festival. =D

full moon. :)

shall end off here barhs. gg to pasir ris to mit ah lei to booked the slots for the morons 6 chalet.

sians. tmr afternoon shift. shall enjoy myself for the last dayy. :(

byes everyone.

dunch feel lky workingg. zz

2007-09-10T07:59:00.000-07:00

physically and emotionally tiredd. mood hab been bad nwadays too.

simply get easily irritated ever since i worked in Zara...

hais. this was the first tyme i ever encountered this feeling.

aint nort a person who dun lky to attend work...

in fact, i enjoy working!

be it working wib the staffs or just pure working ...

it can be so funn...

but, in Zara, it is a total different issue.

aint nort enjoying at all..

nort becuz of the hectic and fast flow situation.. but becus of the people dere..

fukingg sux. T.T

i'm saffocating to death lerh.

wanted so muchh to quit.

but l0ads 0f ppl persuaded me nort to..

miss joanna..

deardear..

my cliques..

hais.

workingg tmr.

morning shift..

so dont feel lky going at all la...

haix.

political issue.

discrimination againest another races.

wth.

began to think back wad the interviewer prompt me " can u work wib malays"

dortttsss

think she shld ask the malays instead barhs

"can u all work wib chinese "

hell. no wonder the majority of staffs working in Zara are malays.

freaking horrible sights. hais. TT

shldn't b blogging nw..just been bak from the class chalet.

:) indeed, it does help me to b happier.

those fwends and lecturer of mine, became my listening ear.

and, they gave me pieces of advices.

thks. TT

but too badd, there isnt any class photos captured during the chalet.:(

quite a waste.

anw. deardear accompany me thruout te whole chalet.

dear, thks fer "looking after" me wen i was drunk.

i knw it hab been a horrible sight. =/

sowii. =F

okaies. my fault. shld hab knw my limit.

my bad .

gna slp early lerh.

habto wake up early fer that idiotic work tmr .

so dun feel lky going at all.

freaking hell.

hab to dragg myself to work again..

sadded. TT

nights . everyone~ s0bs

2007-09-09T01:15:00.000-07:00

You Are Sunset

Even though you still may be young, you already feel like you've accomplished a lot in life.
And you feel free to pave your own path now, and you're not even sure where it will take you.
Maybe you'll pursue higher education in a subject you enjoy - or travel the world for a few years.
Either way, you approach life with a relaxed, open attitude. And that will take you far!

You Communicate With Your Ears

You love conversations, both as a listener and a talker.
What people say is important to you, and you're often most affected by words, not actions.
You love to hear complements from others. And when you're upset, you often talk to yourself.
Music is very important to you. It's difficult to find you without your iPod.

You Are a Friendly Ex

While the guys you've dated haven't been perfect, you've kept most as friends
In fact, one or two of your exes may be your best friends - after all, they know you best
And though your mature attitude is awesome, make sure nothing gets too weird
Or else you could lose these friendships, simply because your exes' new women think you're *too* friendly

Your Job Satisfaction Level: 14%

Not only does your job stink, but you're probably also in the wrong career field.There's nothing worse then dreading that alarm clock every morning.Your work doesn't have to be your life, but you should at least enjoy it.It's time to try something very different. After all, you have nothing to lose!

s0 darn tiredd. =(

2007-09-08T23:13:00.000-07:00

recently, nth great happens barhs. but my work exp at zara does disappoint me alort. everyones seems so unfriendly dere. and the senior staffs, pushed all the tasks and errands to me, throwing me lame EXUSES lky " i m gibing u chances to learn as u r a NEW girl" " this is call training"...

well, u might tink. " nth wrg marhs, helping and running errands might nort b sth big.." that was my thinking on my first dae too.

but, those ppl became worse each dae, every min , every seconds. pin- pointing me to do these and that, pushing blames to me wen our boutique manager scolded the staffs in out section. and come to the worse, order me to take the stocks for dem even if it was their responsibility to do so.. really. it is a political issue. out of 35 staffs in zara leit towers, 32 of dem are malays.

i m nort trying to sae tt i cant work wib malays. and it does nort mean explicitly tt i m racist or wadd. but, .. this is reali wierd. can u guys imagine ? 33 of dem in a distinct grp in tt outlet. wheras onli me and the other 2 chinese gurl are of another grp. hell.

33 of dem ganging up to order the 3 of us ard. "take the chair fer me" "bring me hangers' " take this stock to that customers" " serve tt customers" " clear all these foldings"

basket. nort meaning tt i cant do dem. but 33 of u ordering the 3 of us ard, isnt tt kind of ...=S

when the manager ask abt these issues, u guys said that u all were tired and wanted help ...

but y nort think bak ? everyone will b tired after long hrs of working dere. u and i, are all normal human beings. just purely habing the thinking tt u were tired and therefore, pushing all the jobs to us, just isnt right! in fact, it is SELFISH.

yes, i knw the working condition dere is veri fast pace.

i knw it is hectic..

but dere is reali, a limitations to how much a person can handle.

pushing all the works to a certain lil 3 person just wont work.

i can uds that majority of u all malays. and it is just oh so natural to speak in ur own language. yea. i knw tt..

but harlowes guys. whyy must u all use our names in ur conversation. using a language that we cant uds. to make it worse, showing those faces in disguise.

and well, u idiots, sad to sae, i do uds abit of malays tt u all were saying. =.=

critcising that i was slow and i onli click wib the guys and managers.

saeing that i serve the customers well and caused u all to kena complaintss.

bunch of assholes. think i dun uds hurh ?

though i can onli uds lil bit. it is mre den enuf fer me to uds ur oh so holy stupid conversation.

i m slow?

i dont believe that the whole bunch of u are fastttt wen u first enter..

human beings do need tyme to adapt to a sudden change in environment.

bloody hell.

sumore pushing the blame to me wen u kena customer's complaint?

brainless freak. i serve the customer beta to get compliment letter doesnt mean to sae i drag u intu shit okay ? sound sso no link. idiot. it is all ur fault fer nort serving the customer well. and make urself clear, i didnt do all anytink to please the managers.

stop stinking my names.

holy shit. just becus the managers sae they wanted to gib me trainings and cert, praising me sometymes in the briefing, doesnt means tt u all hab to b againest me.

stop being political. assholes.

feel so much lky quiting le. working in this outlet is saffocating me.

it makes my mood bad everydae.

and i even hab to drag myself to work each tyme.

never hab this kind of exp b4 de.

totally change my view of working.

my lfye of working at bsn wasnt lky tt at all!

everytink was so peaceful and nice, even if it means to b working wib malays.

suddenly hab the urge to accept my ex managers in bsn.
she hab been asking fer me t go bak fer lky duno how many tymes le.

hell. but if i quit nw. those bananas assholes just gna sae mre unpleasant tinks de..

idiot. up till nw. stick wib my job barhs. nort gg tu surrender to dem !

i'll b strongg. =D

nevertheless, a great thk to deardear. euu never fails to fetch me each tyme after my horrible work.

*huggies* :)

and thks to korkor too. fer being my listening ear. hearing out all my grumbling everynight...:)

oh yea, i took bak mt baobei N73 alrdy. :)

glad tt i just hab bak the memories inside.

the songs, images, contacts.

everytings. =))

total cost: $60 plus pluss.. =)

and, below are the pics i promished to post upp earlier. :)

taken at the entrance of waruko. wib reference to the pic, it proved its popularity. =s

here's the food that we ordered. :)

and, i cant believe that deradear actually did this. =.=

i just cant stopp myself from bursting out laughing wen i saw this. LOL.

credits to deardear's hp. :)

okaies. tt's all ferr todae.

gna prepare fer my class chalet le.

miting my baobei mor0n six at pasir ris mrt station at 5.30pm

and i haben start preapring anytink yet. =/

crapp.. :F

yea! at least tis wld drive awae my unhappiness at work and at home! :)

i gna hab loads and tons of FUN!

yipppeeee.. =))

sadded. =(

2007-09-04T08:12:00.000-07:00

hais. so todae went to Nokia Care Shop to service my hp.

and, my hp's damage wasnt covered under the warranty. fuking hell, hab to change the LCD screen which costs me abt $100. and gort to changed the hp cover as well. FUCK. and this damages are all caused by the FUKING bitch!! fuck her to the core la. ASSHOLE!

i m nort ur biological daughter doesnt mean u hab to treat me lky tish. fuk. whyy do u hab to treat me lky tish. is it gg to make ur life happier lky tish ? euu simply dont hab a gd hrt. u can just leave me alone wib my life. and i will even b thankful for it. must u come to mess up my life and for nw, even snatches money frm me? euu are totally responsible fer the damage of the phone. and, u said that, i deserve all tish. dont u feel guilty at all ? firstly, the hp wasnt sponsered by euu, but ME! it was bought wib my hardearn money, nort urs!. euu dont hab any rights to damaged dem. i didnt expect u to pay me bak the money. but y r u snatching awae the servicing fee wen ur husband was trying to help u do some good deed by paying me the lost?

do you still have some feeling clinging on? perhaps, no? euu said tt i owe u alortz. but , in terms of wad? just becosh u r the one who bring me up? ohh, sowi. u didnt. u r just a fuking hsewife staying hme to get fed. those money were given by ur husband! & u dare to sae u bring me up? u holy innocent bitch. u r nort fit to say this. i will nort accept this , other den if ur husband sae tt. & i knw he wouldnt. he wasnt such a fuking bitch lky u! purely tink that i wasted ur money on bring me up? but why, in the 1st place , do u want to buy me off the "shelves" ?! u chose to do so! CHOICES HAB CONSEQUENCES! ohh, my "mother" , do believe that there i afterlife, and do believe that our soul will live on in the netherland. please re consider and tink twice b4 u did and sae any sinful tinks, retribution will alwaes b here in no tyme. u sae i will b punished and i will suffer frm retribution? oh wells. holy jesus. pur lease. i believed i did nth wrg, i m nort scared or the least afraid to receive any re tribution. :)

jesus christ. i reali tot such a horrible fuking bitchy stepmother wld long been extinct in this world. kudoos to u! the extinct ones! i reali pity ur son and ur husband. habing such a mother/ wife lky u must b such a disgrace. u seriously hab some serious mental disorder that must b dealt with immediately. crazy bitch! &, simply making up stories to stink my name just wont make u more honourable.

wanted so much to chase me out yea? too bad, i nort gg to do as u wish!

gd luck to u :)

my policy : screw up my life . i'll give euu HELL !

the mre u want to chase me out, the mre i will nort leave!

i gna stay to gib u hell , to make sure u get angry everydae. :)

& try to insult me mre..

i nort gna lan lan and stay weak.

im gna fight bak!

try to abuse me sumore?

i shall called the police.

u wanna make the matter big, i' will make u wish come true yea. :)

and mayb we shall both try our strength?

wan to mess with me? u gna suffer man.

bigger size den me, doesnt reali mean u r stronger yea?

tt's becosh u r stored up wib fats and i m nort!

and fats cant help u to defend anytink! :)

it just makes u wobble lky a big fat pigg. :)

fuking hell.

shall st0p all my grumbling here. i m sowii, my readers. :[

i just so wan to release my anger.

yea. so after visiting the care shop, went off to mit ys gf and tk at far east fer some shopping spree.

cant believe i went shopping lky crasie wen i haben even start to earn any profits from ZARA yet? wtf. gna control my spending habit le.

i bought 3 cardigans. 1 black belt. 1 vast tt i long craved!

will upload the pics once i grt back my fone. hais. all thks to tt bitch! $^*@%*

knn. :(

following tt, went to "the central" wib gf, tk and bf to hab dinner.

it's at waruko ( shld b spelled lky tish ? =/ )

hmms. was onli okay okay wib me barhs.

hahas. but the q was lky so hmms. LONG!

pics. will b uploaded soon. =)

tt's all fer todae. gd nite all.:)

tmr will b my 1st dae of work at zara's leit tower.

wish me luck. =)

gatherings of the 3 mor0ns.

2007-09-03T08:46:00.000-07:00

todae, met up with, kenvin and leighton kor fer shopping spree at bugis.

actually was joel, lei, ken and me de. but joel was sick, so left the 3 of us. ;(

anw. Joel: get well soon and tc okaies. :)

Initially, we intend to mit at 1pm de. but hell, it was raining cats & d0gs. so, yea, we postpone the tyme. they both reach ard 1 plus tuh 2pm. and me, the outcast.. 3pm.

was late again. zz. but this tyme. was all becos of tt "mother" of mine. she gone crazy todae. smashing those fragile tinks in my rm, smacking at hitting me hard. and asshole, she destroyed my N73! TT wa. tt was my precious lil baobei can ? awws. the casing went cracking. and the screen lky so gone ? lky wad kenvin sae " my fone getting internal injury le" ho sei lia0. TT

hmpf. but sth i reali aint tolerant. she actually insulted and scolded me loads of vulgarities. wtf. so wad if i m nort her biological child ? she dun hab to do tt rite? i mean. every1 ish fragile at hrt and humans, r emotional animals! she dont hav to insult me out right, calling me names tt r so undesirble tt i cant describe. i rather she hurt me physically den EMOTIONALLY!

she sae i cant take anytink or wear anytink tt belongs to the Lua family. den y is she taking my hard earn money ? i couldnt uds her. hais. i just cant uds my biological parents. why must they sell me to sg. i mean, i aint a item or stuffs tt can b exchanged! i m a human being, wib human right! i rather be staying wib my own biological parents. may it b a poor family who aint able to support me. i rather hab a normal family. a family tt consist of me and my own biological parents!

dont i deserve a normal family? though i knw tt they sent me here fer me to get beta edu. lives and stuffs. but hab they consider my feeling? lky no ? am i just worth tt amt tt they sell me for?

i just cant help myself frm getting the negative thoughts. im at a spilt end nw. my biological parents wanted me bak to the bai family. & i cant leave my life in sg just lky tt. i cant bear to leave deardear. but, it's reali so pain fer me to cling on here. too much pain, too much sufferings.

but, i gna b strong! :) no matter wad, i knw, my deardear will alwaes b dere fer me. just lky he did todae. he will b dere to console me and lend me his shoulders to cry on. :) reali thk ! huggies*

wb u ard. i' b strong to face this cruelty. thks fer being dere wen i needed u the most.=)

it was wib u, tt i dun nd to put on any mask.

it was wib u that i do nort nd to hide my feelings.

it was wib u that i can release my true feeling, knwing that u will stand by me and gib me the greatest comfort that u can gib.

tuh me, euu r unique & impt ~ i hrt u, alwaes. <3

all these are alrdy enuf to soothe me. :)

euu are the palette of colours that added colours to my black & white worldd. :)

Alrite, bak to the main topic! so yea. kenvin, lei and me mit up at bugis and we went ot eat sakae sushi! buffet lunch. n.n

$13.90++

which totals to $17 per person. :)

and after tt, we went on shopping spree at bugis street. bought a skinny black pants from dere. :) which i did mentioned earlier that i needed dem as an attire to work in ZARA.

following that, went tuh near bugis dere de OG tuh shop.. as wad kenvin suggested. =)

managed to bought my black tees dere. =3

bought it frm "giodarno" which is located inside OG. :)

and den v walk to bv! in search of mine black shoe. :)

found 1 at "giovanna" and i bought it.

wasnt reali tt nice, but satisfactory. =)

these are the items i bought to fulfill zara's attire requirement, =0=

so blackk.. s=

next. we went to swensens to enjoy ice-cream! :)

i ate the nutty mighty.

big serving.

cost: $7.90

can definitely satisfy a person's ice cream crave. =)

the three morons and my bf ended our dae by watching a movie ," Ratatouille "

and the show. was oh so nice!

ratings: 5 out of 5!

applause **

it was meaningful & hilarious as well. :)

and deardear, send me hme after tt.

oh yes! he engraved names on our ringg lerhs. (:

<3>

alrite, shall end my post here. tmr hab to wake up early to pay the interviewers of zara to pass her my particulars.

deardear gna accompany me yo! =)

and gg to NOKIA shop tmr to fix my hp.

hopefully it can b done on the spot.>.<

and pray hard hard, my warranty can cover the damaged cost.=PP

nites everyone~ :)

backed !

2007-09-02T19:04:00.000-07:00

w00ts~ finally back to bl0gging .LOL. kindd of lky 1 mth nvr bl0g le ? =0=

dun0e whyy. kindd of lky lasie to update my blog recently.. LOL.

apparently ,tink is becos i grt too much pics to upload and i m far t00 lasie to upload dem. & als0. i alwaes takes up almost 2 hrs t0 bl0gg ? hell, okay. i m sl0w..=.=

andd. the MAIN REASON! it's all be'c0z of the EXAMS! & true enuff: exams period means, barred from all entertainments including bl0ggingg..

hahas..and the aftermath of exams ? LOADS and LOADS of FUN ! busie habingg fun till no tyme t0 update. okayys . CRAP! =PP

s0 t0dae's gna b a l0ng p0st lerh. =DD

30.08.2007*

marks the end of exams ! annd . kns. wasnt reali happi at all. cus, i tink i did quite badly fer my three papers. yea. c0z , i didnt reali mugg hard ? hais. suan le barhs. as the saying goes, no use crying over spilled milks ? . okayys . shall work harder fer better results nex sem!. still hope tt i wont hab to take the sub papers . prayy hard hard!!.

and after the paper, the m0r0n 6 and bf pei me to the interview of ZARA! reali great thks to u guys. hahas. waited fer me and stuffs. =D

and. i m "IN" for the recruitment! yippes.

fyi, i m posted to the zara outlet near wheelock place. tt was the biggest zara outlet in sg yo!

s0 peeps. do drop me a visit if u happen tuh pass by dere. =DD

but. i nd to buy a black pant and shoe to accomodate this job. =.=

basket~. nvm, my m0r0n 6 dearies gna pei me to t0wn to shop fer the items later at 1pm! hees.

and, after the interview. v went to parc0 bugis to take ne0print. ^^

Following after tt, v headed to "tian tian huo gu0" t0 eat steamboat. well. sad to sae, the food dere wasnt up to my expectation at all lurhs. =( n0rt nice wan. sum0re. the soup. =z

aye. readers! piece of Advice here: d0 n0rt order the fish head base de soup! ish hell horrible. =S

after habing t0 taste the steamb0at dere. i machiam lky grt ta feeling of kena cheated lerhs. cus they were actually l0ads of signs glaring hard to sh0w tt they are the pop. sites fer steamboat.

th0ugh the food wasnt appealing to us, but wh0 crs yea ? it was the gathering that was impt!

at least everyone of us grt tgt and hab loads of fun! i began t0 lurb m0r0n 6 mre le.=)
buffet tyme! =DD

v spent almost 3 hrs plus plus dere! haha. plaeing "Zhong ji mi ma" ! LOL. and the loser hab to ate up the b0wl of freaky gr0ss leftover. =c

and the bill total up to $154 bucks ! LOL. tt was lky $22 per person. which i tink was lky hmms. s=
alrite. and, after tt. we walk ard bugis street. but found out most of the shops were alrdt closed. -0-. s0 v walk all the wae to marina!(cr. to mr. logical fer pting out is marina.=.=) chit chat , take pics and stuffs. =)

the moron 6 out on loose at MARINA! credits t0. mr J fer helping us to take our " album pic" . LOL~

310807*

mit up wib one of my gf: ys!

we went fer breakfast at n0vena's Han's.

she forced me to eat. =c

ended up, i was hell bloated. cus i cant reali take in breakfast. =c

went back to my sec. school to visit my teachers. and, guess what ?

i wishes every teachers i passed by a HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY! ahaa~=)

and, i went to toa payohh after tt t0 customised a cookie at famous amos fer deardear! t0 wish him happi 6 th month anniversary. =D

s0 after tt,mit upp wib dear dear t0 watch 1408. i aint in favour of it. dun lky the plotting, dun lky the endding. yea, so to me. rating: 1 out of 5.

and. v end the dae by miting up wib his fwends at marina fer steamoat. :)

010907*

went out fer clas tuition 8am in the morn. relief teacher yo! LOL.

enjoyed the tyme teaching dem! haha. cute pri sch kids wh0 lurb t0 j0ke ard.

s0 yea. gg to teach dem again the following wk ! cus their ori. tuition teacher was sick! :)

alrite. and s0, after tt. i rushed to mit deardear up at PS. promish t0 pei him go take cert and stuffs. but ... kind of lky ps larhs. cus i was late fer 2 hrs frm our miting tyme. =d

sowi sowii. >.<

but. i grt reasons de okays~ i was drenched in the rain after the clas tuition marhs. cant possibly want me to mit him up looking all wet rite. >.<

i dun wan to look so out lurh =v

yea. so after tt, he accompany me to clarke quay . as i nid to do sum shopping dere. =3

v hab our lunch dere as well. "pepper lunch" =D

. share a salmon set as the serving was large. :)

and we took some pics at dere as well. <3

and m0r0n 6! sowi peeps. cant join the gathering wib u all todae. c0sh it was kind of last min notice? =.=

nex tyme tell me earlier ! and i ' b glad to plan ahead. =) dun sae i ps u all la. LOL. :(

we ended our dae after gg tuh his driving centre. which was alrdy closed by the tyme v reached dere. =S

so on our wae hme. started to plae silly games lky asking each other our personalised questions, t0 c wh0 uds wh0 beta~
and the outc0me is. i w0n! =PP i onli grt 3 wrg ans. wheras he grt 4 qns wrgg. =(

020907***

IT's OUR 6TH MONTH ANNIVERSARYY!

hhes. went to famous amos to collect my customised cookie! =)

mit up him after tt at t0a payoh control station dere. he was late! =P

passed him the customised cookie, and he was happy! =)

glee** s0 v headed tuh cathay t0 buy out tickets fer "dead silence" ! he s0 want t0 watch it larhs. hahas. :)]

dead silence was nice! much mre nicer den 1408 =.=

but hell, it was darn horror lerhs. so peeps . wib weak hrt: dun watch yo~

ratings: 3 out of 5 :)

horror rating: 4 out of 5 !

the plot is so much nicer den 1408. though the ending was abit. u knw. s=

all the char. dead. 0.0

oh yes. i finally tasted chicken t0dae! fer lky abt 1 mth nvr touch any of it le.!

chicken pie frm polar.

awws. so nice lerhs. >..<

and, we went to ate ice ice in ps. readers ! look out fer a shop " ice monster" !

i sweared u will ate ta ice dere wib full satisfaction! =D

esp. no.6 dessert on the list. mango wib milk blended. oohhh my godd~

and deardear was being sweet todae yo! he bought me flowers! i so lurb dem ! esp. him , him HIM!~ =PP

so as usual. we sat ard. chat chat and stuffs to wait fer the movie

and we gone crazy cam- whoring at cathay. LOL. :)

t0ld ya, we gone crazy wib cam whoring. =3

ohh my goddd. holy jesus! It's 12.45pm nw! and i gna meet dem at 1pm at bugis! AWW. i gtg. but i haben finish my post lurh. i haben upload me and deardear de neoprint celebrating our 6th month anniversary! asshole.

and i spent 3 hrs on this post!

and it's still nort done yett.

darnnn

i b bak blogging again. cya ! :)

my fifth dae wib chickenpox

2007-08-11T06:27:00.000-07:00

hais. 5 daes le. and my chicken pox still show no sign of healing. TT.

cham liao lorhs. still wondering how i gna go back to sch nex monday.. awws. *prayprayy* faster heal narhs. >.<>

and my MC macham reali lky hols lky tt, i slacked everydae lor. eat slp eat slp on9.. dia0s. so no life larss.

oh ya. deardear still came to visit me. so sweet of him ! he bought me apples!LOL.
i lurb deardear! >.<
and so long nvr c u ler, wa!
hais. hope tt i can recover fast ! i want to watch movie and pei my deardear. >.<

dorts. and some bo liao de ppl..the tag~ers .. lamers. claim him/herself as "unknown" and posted some dia0 de msges. plz larhs. this person seriously gort nth to do ae.

and to all my fwends and clique out dere, thks fer all ur concern! =D
and yea. lopez, derrick and all, i will recovered asap! >.<

tish yr de ndp ish the most bo liao de fer me le.

cannot watch fireworks wib deardear

cannot go movie wib deardear

cannot go to the "biggest human flag" event.

hais, nvm barhs.

i miss dear agaiin!!! <3>

huggs & misses!

020307**

my promish to u :

i will make this relationship last !

but..

i want us to be happy!~

went to watch 881 !

2007-08-10T03:52:00.000-07:00

hees. supposed to use the 10 daes MC to rest de. but instead. i used it as my hols! WAHAHA!

didnt touched anytink regarding of school.

and i went to watch 881 wib korkor and mummy todae. WEEH. the story darn nice eh! xD
and wonder i went out: i went out wib long sleeve, long pants, sunglass and a cap!
lky wad michael sae. macham lky superstar. but ish chicken pox superstar !!

aww. so darn hot de weather and i hab to wear till lky tt. zz.

meaningful, hilarious plus sadd sadd de.. wa.. nice nice nice NICE NICEEE!!
yeaps.. and i went wib my chickenpox! =X

ya la. kind of inconsiderate and selfish, i knw. but ppls. try tt, put urself in my shoes la. being stucked up in the idiotic , square~ish hse is so boring plus no life okie. and, i nvr tried b4 staying inside the hse fer more den 24 hrs de lor! hais. so nort me..
but i beri considerate le okay. i went to the nearest cinema wib least least least ppl de. well, at least i didnt go orchard de lor... =X. ehs. sick ppl also nd entertainment de lor. ah bo , how to recover faster ? correct marhs =p

hees. so ya. after the movie, went macdonalds fer a fillet fish meal. and i ate popcorn , fries. woots! yummy.! and is mummy allow me to eat de lor. she bought all those goodies and kept on asking me to eat. LOL. my mummy so gd hor ? and she even buy lollipop fer me. ^^

she sae last tyme chiong projects till so cham, nw let u enjoy la. few daes later, go bak sch , cannot enjoy le. l0ls. her theory.. s=

oh yaya. i so lurb the movie ehs. duno y. hab been qi dai~ng fer it le. since lky duno how many daes bak. and i reali reali nice. >.<>.<

2007-08-08T03:20:00.000-07:00

今天, 胃又一直隐隐作痛 , 有点担心 ... 如果是像两年前这样 , 我是否还会那么幸运 , 那么奇迹地康复 ? 如果上天不再对我眷顾 , 那我该怎么办 ? 为什么是我 ... 好痛苦 ... 我不要 , 好害怕那种滋味 . 医院的药水味 , 打针的疼痛感觉 , 我真的不想 , 再也不想再经历 !
好想找个人安慰 , 找个人依靠拥抱 .. 可是我最爱的人他一直不知道 , 我更不可以让他知道 . 因为他懂了一定会很担心很难过 ... 我不要 , 不想看到他伤心的样子 . 我的任务就是要让他快乐啊 ~~ 我宁愿自己一个人承担也不要他陪我痛苦 ...
所以我不能找任何人靠 , 我只能在夜里抱着自己偷偷哭泣 ...

傻傻的孩子气 , 偶尔嘟嘴生气的脸 , 是他最可爱的一面 . 没有人了解其实他也像个单纯的孩子 . 即使个子高高大大 , 外表装得很强郎 , 其实内心里都住着一个天使 , 一个善良可爱的小天使 .
常常装得很无奈 , 善于假民主真独裁的他 , 总是会让我哭笑不得 . 每次和他聊天 , 我免不了会像个颠婆一样的哈哈大笑 . 每次想到他灿烂的笑容 , 嘴角会不知觉地上扬 . 其实 , 他真得很棒 ! 真正懂他的人不多 , 也许我还不算是 . 但 , 在他身边的人都知道 , 你会给人带来微笑 . 我就是一个最好的例子了 ...
好感激你 ... 对我来说 , 生命里最刻骨长久的就是回忆 . 我曾幻想有一天当我老了 , 头发全都变白了 , 牙齿都掉光时 , 坐在摇椅上 , 牵着另一半的手一起回想过去 . 那时候如果我想到属于我们的回忆 , 一定会嘴角上扬 . 因为那是最美的回忆 ... 我想我这辈子 , 就算活到一百岁 , 也一定会记得你现在的样子 ^^

哎, 真的好痛苦. 全身上下都长满了讨人厌的豆豆. 彻底的毁容了. 想着想着, 突然觉得好无奈, 好好的, 竟然会得水豆. 搞的自己不能去学校上课. 完了, 这次铁定完蛋!

omg. dwn wib serious illness.!

2007-08-07T08:08:00.000-07:00

awws. felt so weak nwadays. giddy, headache and stuff. so went to see a doctor todae! but i was darn sad and SHOCKED wen i heard the doctor's say. he claim that i gort chickenpox and i nd to keep myself away frm the public. awws. tish is terrible.

i m reali in deep deep trouble tish tyme! cos nex wk is gna b a busy week.
1) wds presentation nex wk.
2) lab test on thur
3) java submission and iiso presentation on fri!
omfg! hell larhs. and there is gg to b a whole scratch of revision( which i reali nded it so much!)
aww. how?! i dun wanna miz any of this impt tinky..

chamchamcham. reali in deep shit tis tyme. any kind soul willing to keep me updated wib tnks gg round in sch ? most possibly help me write the impt revision topic and hints on exams.
awwwwwwwwssss. i wanna cryy out nw. i m darn worriedddddd!!!!
god. saveme saveme!! wawawa!

goddd...plz blessed me wib the power of healing to gett well on MON. plzzzzzzzz. cos i reali nd to go fer the presentaion. if nort, tink i gna fail this module and become "bin chau chau" on the nex sem..

wo de tian ar.. lao tian ye jiu wo arhhhss!. and i nd to go bak fer revision. if nort, reali cant catch up. cus i alrdy forgort wads happening in the early sem of this yr le. badly nds revision to recap. sumore. the iiso teacher sae he/she gna conduct revision on SWIMLANE! omfg! i seriously nd help of it... wa.. i reali nd to get well !! and sumore, the lecturers confirm will gib hints on the exam de. awws. i dun wan to miz it..!! WA! T.T

aww. of all illness. y chickenpox. walaoways. at the most, fever+cough+flu+vomit... but WHY CHICKEN POX!!!! awws. lky tt i will die a horrible death larhs. and also will hui rong! TT
wa! wo bu yaoooooooooooooooooo~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

JIU MING ARGHHHH! and the medication is lky super uber expensive. $104 dollors. awws. and i m lky onli visiting a neighbourhood clinic. hell~

slpless nite perhaps?

2007-08-05T09:00:00.000-07:00

wth. wds reali suck big tyme le. diaos. till nw, i still dun hab any idea how to make my web site to last fer 10 pages. hell. cham le lor. awws. and i m supposed to b doing my wds nw. but here i m , blogging, on the fone wib dear dear. hais. hopless le larh.so i tink , thks to this wds, i will get slpless nite again le. TT

and, realise tt i lurb him mre and mre le. began to miz him w/o seeing him fer only 1 day. ya la. i mis his stupidd stupidd face.=X . and i mis bullying and bashing him up. hahas. sounds lky i m abusing him? l0ls. as he alwaes said. zz

and! he bought me a ring. wa! so much of a surprise lurh. suddenly ask me close eyes den pop the ring intu my finger. LOL. haha. thks to deardear! s0 sweet yea. =)

but, of cus. i m touched la. totally totally touched. <3

but ke xi nerhs. he didnt do any engraving. sobbs. if he does tt, tt will b perfect. hees. asking too much yea? but. i can uds la, cus he said he nort beri sure of my ring size, so dun dare to engrave 1st. hais.

hees.i so lurb the ring can!

so i gota b crful and keep a lookout fer it. dun drop can le. if nort, i reali will slaughtered myself.

okies. tt's all. nites everyone. wds tyme..*yawn*

imisdeardear.020307*
je'taime.

idiotic working tyme.

2007-08-04T21:18:00.000-07:00

just came back frm work. kaoz. idiotic working tyme. ytd, while i was in the middle of 0f doing my projetcts. my photoshot director called to demand me to work at 3am in the morn. iwas lky so wtf la. idiotit. reali "sai gang" (hokkien). 3am, walao. i go b a road sweeper also nort so cham okies. so demanding. "tt was not the effects i want" "no feeling no feeling" " noo...cut! " "better posture" " better timing"" better quality" " put in more feelings" walaoways. director. u tink i reali tt professional arh. dont demand so much larhs, sumore i m a model who is alrdy quiting soon le. do u hab to make my life so miserable?

sumtymes. i just hope that the client will nort chose on me to b their model for whateva tinks. in this wae, at least, i wont hab to rush dwn fer audition, photoshots and stuffs. and, who will hab "feelings" wen u are told to work at 3am ? sumore, blame me wen ur production team gib wrg lightning effect. " u are nor suppose to stand dere wen the light shine tish wae" wheys! my hou mian no eyes de lor. u expect me to knw whr u production team wan shine? dorts. shld rather sae, ur production team pa jiao le larh. i stand here, they go shine in the other direction. stupidd toot! yeap, ans i receive another schedule frm my company again. fuking hell. the schedule was lky so darn full okies. almost everydae hab to go bak fer courses, shots, audition and of the best, roadshow! aww. c tish, can faint le. roadshow = nd to slim dwn + practice walking mre on high heels+ time consuming( which tyme is nort on my side nwadays + more and more courses to self improve on my walks. but, tish latest de roadshow is at paragon and zouk. hees. at least beta!

hais.i swear i so gona quit modelling no matter wadd. it was such torture, and i hair almost gone becus of this job. this is simply cus i hab to set my hair lky duno wad freak everytyme. bth..
most importantly, i don lky the ppl dere, esp. my director. the tao pok and the higher rank de tau pok( lky wad derrick said) l0ls. they are reali xia lan ar? "be slower in changing the nex tyme, no mre shots fer u". and oh ya, the torturing part: v are onli allowed 5MINS to eat! this is reali hell. hab to force myself to eat real fast under their pressure. the outcome: i take on the bad habit, out of work tyme, also eat real fast. i myself didnt realise it until dear comment tt i ate real fast nwadays.(cos i deemed to eat beri slowly last tyme)

darn, and ytd, kena scold lky dog by my "jin ji ren", hmms, so called agent ? yea. i was lky habing the usual grooming by my groomer. and she came frm afar, storming towards me and throw me a stack of statistical data. wad was it? graphs drawn and specifically stated that i dropped in my performance in photoshots, drop in my percentage towards earning glory and money fer my company. diaos. " u better stop gibing those exuses of u nid to study, u hab ballet to concentrate, u nid mre tyme"" i nid u to pull up all those tinks that u ..blah blah blah.." and she went on and on and on.. wtf. lamer, if u reali dun lky me to gib so many exuses, fire me la. i b so much happier and i wld even appreciate ur kind offer of firing me.

so yea, ytd went to my office to tok wib my manager. he was a nice person that i most trusted in my modelling circle. and he was lky, hoping hard that i wont quit. reasons being he saw the freak potential within me and he trust that i can go well in this industry. yea, and he was the 1 who is alwaes pushing me to the clients, mediacorp etc. he uses loads og propogana. sort of brainwashing techiniques, trying to convince me to nort to quit modelling and sign on the contract with the company. and, freaking part: he was quite successful. my mind went blurred wib direction again. hais. mayb too many ppl disagree that i quit barh : bf, korkor, gf, my sec. clique. duno le. no reasons fer me to stay on too. though it is my interests in photoshots.

But thinking bak ,this industry reali changed me alort. frm a person who dont dare to speak up, blur, inmature, anti social, to a almost complete reversal. the most evident : i dont scold vulgarities last tyme, nort so bad tempered, dont clubb to hais.a TOTAL complete reversal. sumtymes. reali duno why i changed so much. no mre the me last tyme anymre. the mre i changed, the worse my family ties and me gets. habing tots to go bak to my blood related daddy again. currently, this father of mine, hais. wad to sae, surname also changed le. wad mre can i sae and do nw. i rather hab bak my initial surname: 白 and also my initial name: 研淑.

okaies. for the tyme being , i nd to go fer my ballet practice le. no slp hrs again. hell.. shall update tonite again? hahas. mayb..if i hab nth beta to do. =p

it's all abt wds frm nw till tmr perhaps?

2007-08-03T07:52:00.000-07:00

sadded ehs. todae is fri, my most fav. dae of the week. but nort happi at all lor. cos tmr still nd to go bak to school. awws. for wad? for the sake of the idiotic wds project larhs. knowing that i wont b habing the initiative to start doing it at hme, and nort gg to hab a clear idea to get it done. so it seems a great idea to get it done in skool. booked the lib room at 11am tmr, hope i wont slp late and i beta get dere on tyme. cos its under the library rules, that the room will be gib awae to the other ppl in nd if the holders of the booking did not collect the keys within 10 mins. ish lky so wth narhs.and, deardear sae he gona wait fer me till 6pm tmr. hais. hab initially promish to pei him tmr to collect his sports climing cert. at vivo de. but turn out to b a empty promish nw.
i m reali sososo sowii la. thks fer showing ur understanding.i knw that it was bad of me to turn dwn the promish i gib u at the very last min. sowii. >.<>

and yeap. all the best fer ya exam tmr. sobbie fer u le. hab to wait fer me till 6pm though u will b dismissed at 2pm. felt bad abt it. cus last tyme, it was purely 3hrs. and i refused to wait for u.awws.

wells.so nw, grumbling tyme!
todae prsp lab session wasnt gd at all. total disaster, dont uds JAVA at all. yea. i totally dont get a grasp of it. wonder how i gona survive the rest of my life in tp... heardd tt tinks are gg tu b worse.. c ++ language are just coming their wae upp. this is wae terrible..
tink i just sisnt hab the passion in IT, computing. haiyo.. and to think that this course was my 1st choice of preferred course. wth? the prsp lecture was even worst. the hualalala lecturer just wont fail to puts me intu wonderland during her lecture. how m i supposed to uds a tink wen she started to pile up all the idiotic java lang. wen i dont even knw the basics. this is just so horrible. i can feel the stress piling up on me. jesus christ. do shine on me mre. so yeap. i decided to b a guai kia todae by trying to force my mind and soul remained in the lecture. and. i actually copied dwn al the tinks she write. fund out sth. this does helps greatly in keeping me awake. cos, at least my hand are busie writing? hahas. this was deardear de opinion la: copy dwn notes even though i dont uds the lessons, so that can go bak and look thru..
but , hahas. knwing that i carried the lasy genes. it is purely impossible fer me to touch my lecture or wateva notes once i end school.
just the look at java script, causes me braindead. it really does.

oh yeaps. some happenings at tp todae! "xiao hua xiao cao" ? yeap, basically a reality show to bring out the so call" outstanding" "talented" students in tp. to me, it wasnt anytink great barh. i mean, cant tolerate to stand under the hot and burning sun to watch the progs. on the other hand, my claz clique were darn 'on' ar? they simply stand all the wae to watch the tinky and took pics ..blah blahh. hahas. duno. to me, soso nias. ya la, admit was quite interested to get a peek of it. but staying dere to watch the whole tink, simply nort me.hahas.deardear wasnt facy abt it too. and, he doesnt knws abt this event at all.l0ls. so much fer their publication. but still, kind of keen to knw who won at the end.. hahas. till nw, i grt no idea who won la.

yeap. discussing abt that. frm afar. i saw a guy who deem to do catwalk ? mayb i see wrgly? he beta nort claims that to b a catwalk or modelling walk. extremely horrible. l0ls. luckily i wasnt at the front wen he was performing, else. sure to laugh at him.-.- i mean..hais. suan le. zzz
and another who deems to do a breakdance? i guess? LOL
tt was the most hilarious. miss joanna said he looks more lky he was doing hopscotch. and yeap. i DEFINITELY AGREE! LOLS. no kick.

the gurls. hmms. overall, okaie barh. but i still preferred the 2nd contestants among the ladies. seem mre qing zhun? hahas. the 1st and 3rd was lkyy...hmms. =s
shall nort elaborate. but they were said to b the mre popular ones. but wateva la. all the contestants fer this event deserves a big applause. ^^
they really nd the courage to do all these right in the open space. =)

ballet re-audition.

2007-08-02T05:57:00.000-07:00

was darn sad and down wen i heard my ballet instructor said that the korea institute of dance(ballet) wanted a re-audition due to the outnumbered intakes. hais. den nvm. went to collect the proposal in which it contains all the details of the ballet moves and steps, with all the criteria clearly stated. was darn shocked upon receiving it. difficult dance steps..alomst impossible to b done. will my dream b shattered..aww.

the korea institute sae they gna take in only 2 students frm singapore institute of arts and performance.. means i onli hab a lil slice of chance to get in. hais. hopeless le. tink i gna practice lky mad, hope i can get into the finals barhs. the advice frm my instructor: i nd to stretch mre everydae to make those dance steps possible. shall try. i want my dream to come true la! TT
but onli 2 students out of 60 contestants will b elected. wth..kind of hopeless le.

oh yea. todae is the 2th of aug le. happy 5th mth anniversary t0 me and deardear.^^
end class at 6pm todae. supposed to wait fer him till 9pm de. but ..hais. no choice le. granny was sent into the hospital, so gna rush dwn to visit her. =s

still thinking whether to join the orchestra performance at the esplanade. but plaeing cello is also one of my profession, reali feel lky gg fer it. but reali lky, no tyme ? ballet plus projects plus final exam coming on my wae... omg? oh yeap, and my nvr ending free lance photoshot..dorts. i ga quit modelling once my contract hit its limit. iduncr le. it makes my life so miserable with all those dying, coloring, photoshots and fully packed schedule with stupidd clients, auditions.....and so on and so forth. zz. hectic and chaotic.

deardear~ happy 5th mth.
020307* ^-^

stressed plus fcuk up.

2007-08-01T03:13:00.000-07:00

feeling rather dwn nwadays. JAVA assignment gna due in one or 2 weeks tyme, and i dont even uds a single tink. hell, how m i suppose to do the project out. this is totally IMPOSSIBLE! aww. sumore she is gg to gib us a lab test straight after the project submission to c if v reali did the projects ourself. wtf, tt means cant get sum1 even to help le.&%$**

Another issue. WDS! fuk tt FARIDAH . walaowayys. i thought is gna b the end of her torture after the beta submission of wds. but guess wad? her comments was to ask me to redo the whole tink frm sketch again! ni ma de. u reali kan suay wo issit. i heard u asking me to redo and redo and redo fer every of ur comment towards me. wth wrg is wib u ? i didnt huan tio ni lor.*&^%.
dun nd lky tt de marh. bu shuang me can just sae out face to face de! dun nd to do all these small small actions behind me.. i spent loads of efforts on it larhs. including nort slping fer 1 whole dae just to chiong this project out. and i hab been redo~ing alort of tyme le lor. either the problem of the programs or fer the sake of u , asking me to do these and that. wtf, wads the problem wib u ?! redo redo & redo is just wad u sae. didnt even tell me wad to amend. " u c.. nort nicce de" " i dun wan lky tt" " no..no..no!" " redo.." WTF! enuf le. reali lor. wen i ask her bak how to change it better, she sae" duno"" u go refer the practicals" wtf is all these ? kaoz.. " if u hand this up, i gna fail u" idiot faridah. TT waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. god plz save me!

and todae, ryan sae he gna quit poly. tt asshole. dun knw he lying or wad. but he sounds and look serious ehs. i mean, he is reali doing well in poly la. no matter, his results, projects.. he is nort coping well, but DOING EXREMELY WELL!
kaoz, and his reason fer quiting is, " i dun lky poly lyfe""dun lky my course"
*blank*

no comments. all of my friends who entered this poly wib me are quiting poly le. one by one.. 1st is py, den tk and nw ryan.. hais. duno y. but i hate this feeling. though i dont reali lky my course and poly life. i still struggling to cope. this is possible wib all those class clique ard. they reali do brighten my dae and of cos makes my life in poly better. hais. tink that is the only fond memories i hb in poly le. but i shall rmb wad my form teacher in my sec sch sae. i shall nort gib up, reali trying to cope. but seriously, wib teacher lky faridah. i will reali die la. so darn unkind.TT

okie. enuff of all my grumbling. kiies. well, today. sch ends at 12pm and i m suppose to stay bak in sch to do the iiso presentation model. b4 gg to project~ing, went to the gym to work out. at least relieve my stress a lil. and as usual. joel alwaes hab comments abt me doing bridge. last tyme was the issue of belly button and cigratte bud. and nw, skull bones and credit card. -.-
wonder wad fresh ideas will he hab fer nex wk wen i do bridge again. =-=
u grt all the wierd wierd ideas la. haiyo.

and i wonder, some tp de guys reali so despo ? kaos. i was lky leaning againest the wall outside the gym, resting. and these 2 stupid bunny guys, came and kajiao me. 1 look at me as if lky i m a freako or wadd. the other went" hey. hi. hello." wtf? i mean hey, hi and hello means all the same tink la. dia0. u hab to join it up tgt to form a sentence ?! tt lamer .. so i didnt cr the least out of dem.

and the other contd. aiya. c, she bochap u la..
and this idiot acted even more retarded, started to get near to me, and sae" hi. wad sch are u frm"
and" u come gym ar" dia0. stupidd. tink he beri pro ar..
kiies, so c them so cham, gib dem some respond la. i replied" tp" ^^ and " oh no larh. i came here fer presentation de"
diao. tink he so gna knocked out. but the another still dare to ask fer my hp no.
=.=

so simple la, i said , 999 and walk off to the gym to avoidd.
*roll eyes* despo .

九年了,你过的还好吗? 是否还记得我?

2007-07-29T10:50:00.000-07:00

姐姐,时间真的过得很快. 一眨眼, 九年过去了. 可是时间却无法冲淡我心里的创伤.我还是感到非常难受.真的无法接受你早已经离开了的事实. 真的很舍不得.无奈老天容人...一切都是天意吧. 只能祝你一路好走.来生有缘再相聚吧!
对你的思念, 天天都在累积, 我好想你.

lost lurbb.

2007-07-29T07:00:00.000-07:00

just dozed off fer lky 45mins just nw. and i dreamt of her- my twin sister. jie. i miz u so much.

was that simply just a dream or was it that you hab reali came bak? everytink seems so real to me in the dream. tmr will b ur 9 yrs of death anniversary. and that will b the saddest dae for me. do you know the pain that u hab gave us since u left? my hrt shattered frm the seconds when daddy told me u hab left. it reali hurts. why does god gave me a blessing to hab a twin sister and snatch it away from me when i lurbbs you. i just cant bare to sent u awae..

for the 9 yrs that v hab been tgt, that was the best times of my lyfe. we symbolises each other, we hab the same interests and everytink. i just lurb the moments when we are tgt. nothing can replace this feelingg. laughter filled the air wen i was wib u.
when u were there, i knw that there will alwaes b some1 to listen and advice on me. you gave me the lurb that i nded the most. it was you that encourage and brighten up my daes when daddy and mummy wasnt by our side. though my childhood wasnt that fulfilling and enjoyable just lky every other kid, i was blessed and happi tu hab u by my side. with u ard,it wouldnt bothers me even i m nort allowed to play outdoors or anytink. i wouldnt even bothers if i were being enrolled and force into some clas, like ballet , piano and stuffs. This was because, u were ard. u will alwaes b wib me whreva i go.

i m happy to hab a twin sister. and i m proud of tt. but from the tyme that u left, my childhood wasnt good at all. i became the only gurl left and dad and mom drop in even higher hope on me. i hab to attend all those clas alone. there will no1 to comfort me and there were no mre shoulders fer me tu lean on. loads of tyme, i wish u were there. i mis ur prescence. jiejie. i lurb you.

the memories you hab given me, i will keep in foreva. you will nort be forgotten. jie, i reali reali miz u alort. if there is reali 来世, i hope that we can be sister again. mis u loads. mwaks**

applause fer the movie "alone"

2007-07-28T22:24:00.000-07:00

the movie was darn good, the story plot..woots! good job. alone was a darn horror movie. so ppl wib weak hrt, du go watch o..^^ hahas. btw. the movie was frm thailand de. so we ppl arnt nort gg tu uds wad they are toking abt. but gort subtitles la. english, chinese.. blah blah blah. so wateva ppl also k watch. THUMBS UP fer "alone" !!

nice show, reali. =) is worth to watch yo!

me and deardear waiting fer another horror movie. silent ****(nort sure of its name) and 1408. which v tink are gg tu b a hit again. so he sae no matter wad, he gna book the ticket in advance le. cos ytd. our seating fer the movie was darn bad.. third row frm the sreen . warhs. strain our neck nerhs. *painpainZ* can get hrt attack. cos the ghost was lky ..jumping towards at us..
cos v are so near to the screen..

hahas. speaking of ytd "alone". darn gao siao ar. suddenly watch till halfwae. a lady reali scream darn loud..-.- anddd.....

the ppl in the movie theatre all laugh..duhhs.
den nvm ar, saw the couple beside me. more diao.
the girl actually sat on the lap of his guy fer the whole show.omgg.
i mean... wad fer u buy another seating..zz
duno ar, just cant stand all those ppl. intimate jiu intimate narhs. haiyo. i mean u hab to show ppl that u 2 are so intimate until so desperate ar..LOLS
okay lar, so much fer my tots.
cus me and deardear, same de. bth ths type of couple de. hahas. v hate to b lky superglued de.wakaka

yeap. so our show began at 9.05pm and end lky abt 11pm. warhs. i lurb their story plot. no wonder, it hab been such a great hit la. said this becs v 2 hab been roaming ard orchard area to buy tickets just to watch this movie.
zz. and all the movie theatre was lky"selling fast" "no mre seats" .. duhhs.

and v finally found one at ps.pathetic 2 tickets left which is so front row narhs.TT

yeaps. so ytd. we shop shop here and dere, watch movie, den went hme. below are some pics that i took wib him.. hais. duno y ar, v 2 take pics tgt, foreva lky cmi de. =X
wa..

rainyy dae again

2007-07-27T07:37:00.000-07:00

. . . win lia0 l0r. tish few daes...kept on raining raining and raining. wth. darn cold can. hais. godd. gib us a sunny dae barhs. i wanna get some warmth of the sun.=)
*amen*

oh yarhs. todae i went to simpsons de movie fer the second tyme ! hahas. tish tyme wib joel, jun, michael and dear dear. darn funny larhs. watch 2 tyme le, still enjoy it so much. admired the director of this movie. he/ she must definitely be a genius to produced such perfect and flawless movie.

anw. luckily nvr chose to watch vacancy todae? cus kenvin and lantern sae nort nice worh. even said that it was kind of wasting their money.. hahas.
okaies, frm the feedbacks frm u all. decided nort to watch that wib deardear tmr le.LOLS

and omfg. i nearly lost my ez link card narhs. dropped it at the movie theatre. toot toot sia. haben extract wisdom tooth, jiu become so toot le.zz. kaoz. luckily dear dear help me go ask the movie ticket's staffs and finally found it in the movie threate dere. hehes. thks deardear fer helping me. appreciated it alort.^^

nites everyone! ^^

myth of wisdom tooth ?

2007-07-26T05:29:00.000-07:00

aye. nth to do. so i m bak to blogging le.

hais. speak of todae gg to ndc. i damn sad narh. TT aww

**in the clinic**

dentist: u developed a wisdom tooth ?

me : 0.o '' reali? i didnt knw ehs ?

dentist: *pass mirror* c..hsben fully developed...

me: OMG! wa. how cum i didnt knw de? no feeling sumore?

dentist: ya. normallly ..normal ppl will feel if they developed wisdom tooth.( oh wells. she implying i m abnormal la?) -.-

me: okie. den nw how?

dentist: nd to extract. and nd parental consent. cus kind of high risk. but u r lucky .cus u can choose to pluck it at ndc. it's safe. ( advertising fer ndc?=.='' sae safe sumore. implying that if i bleed profusly, still can b send to the emergency operation rm in sgh) diao.

me: must ar? i dun wan nias.

dentist: ya. no1 will wan to pluck, last tyme i also bo bian den pluck de. =-=( wth?)

oh ya.. btw. she was lky using the sharp sharp dental eq tt she hab to poke at my gum(ta wisdom tooth surrounding de gum) wen she sae all those conversations above. TT. s0bbies.**

and she said, c, ur gum here are so weak. poke abit jiu bleed le.
bloody hell, i was habing totts to change position wib her..
y nort she b the one whose gums are kena poke by me?
idiot nugget nehs. u poke continuously lky tt, of cos will bleed la. u basket~

and seriously. will extracting wisdom tooth reali made us become stupid? o.o
i reali duno ehs. 0.0
so the saeing of extracting wisdom tooth will lose wisdom is actually a myth?

i dun wan become stupidd!~~ TT

laughter filled the air =)

2007-07-25T07:50:00.000-07:00

wa. just nw too excited till forgort to update abt todae happening le la.
hees.todae is my fav dae of the week ehs. WED! start sch at 9 and ends at 11am.woot~ shuangg niass..>

keep fit dae fer lantern, ken , mojo and me! hahas. ehs. tink no one will b as toot toot~ as us la.. runs in the rain.. aww aww. reali toot toot~ ended up v are drenched by the rain instead of our sweat.>

fyi. i onli ran fer 2 rounds. pathetic me. stamina drops all the wae to the drain. o..wells. so i did lots of stretching instead. fer the benefits of my ballet. =D

but that shit shit mojo sae i bu shi ren. =.=
just becos he cant stretch. =p
mojo is old.
mojo is old~~
mojojojo old oldd~~~
u cant stretch. =p

weehs. and stop saeing that u gna treat my ****** as the ash tray okaie. u toot toot~
and, v went gyming after tt.
guys gort high expectations narh
wth. complaining the eq nort gd, no air con..
zz
dia0 narhs.
oh ya, an they took longer tyme to change and staffs den me..
hais. unbelievable. make me wait so longg nias.

den v went tm! to watch the simpons sneak preview >.<>

oh yea. b4 watching simpons. we went to take pictures with the simpsons family. wahahah.x)

camwhoring in tm was fun! ^-^V

memories of bhss.

2007-07-21T09:35:00.000-07:00

went bak to my sec school- balestier hill, today. oh well, i simply miss my sec sch so much larhs. everytink seems so heartening and warm wen i went bak. the teachers, the places in dere, in fact, the WHOLE SCHOOL was such a perfect sight for me. i just feel so good and homely dere. hahas.

hmms. but too badd, it rain fer ta whole dae . outcome = ta carnival suffers. every outdoor activities hab tu become indoor. boring rites. haw~ anw. tink tt tis yr de carnival wasnt tt great after all . i mean ta event was llky god damn hell boring and nort so popular compared to last yr or so. onli a few ppl went. hais.

oh, by the wae. before ta carnival, i attend a professional tok by mr jacob..iish a program workshop called the "arrows with soul" . the talk was meaningful and humorous. l0ls. meanful as he sae " wen u do the tinks tt you like, and u succeeded tt is called recreation. and, wen u do sth tt u dont lky and u succeeded, tt is called maturity, excellence and professionalism." i thought this was rather true and interesting. how many of us actually lky to do the tinks tt we dont lky and rather, succeded out of it ? nort much. =)

"lets not try to balance our life, instead v shall use integration" sounds s chim ?
hahas. wad he meant is, sometimes in our life, somehow or rather, v planned to do sth at a period of time. for eg, todae i want to play psp, i wan to go out wib my fwends, i wan to do projects. there are just so much tinks to b accomplished in a dae. BUT tyme is nort alwaes by our side. it is just not easy to do everytink tt u want in tt single day.

this is where integration came in. try to integrate ur lyfe rather den balacing it. =)
which means, sort out the impt tinks tt u nd to accomplished. for eg, projects? as games can be plae any time after tt. =)

i m totally amused and interested by the talk .=D
i mean, really ! ta tok was great and it really relates well to me. it reali cause me so much pain to balance my life up. may it be, sch projects, family, friends, bf, ballet,exercising or work, i just dont hab enuf tyme to juggle wib all tt. tinks that i want to accolplished just cant b done. and so, it began to pile up and , dae after dae ,it realli becum so impossible to accomplish dem. tish is reali no life. =(

well, who dont wish tat they demself wld lead a simple, peaceful and purposeful life ? but, it is impossible la. reality sux!
but just lky wad Adam Khoo had said to me b4, i believe that choices have consequences. wad u choose to do, will eventually leads you to a outcome. no matter, gd or bad.. you have to accept it. this is the real world. It is competitive, and no1 is gg to gib a damn, even if u were to collapsed or watsoeva. everytink will just contd..cruel isnt it ?

so well, ppl. v do hab choices in out life tt v can make rite? v just nd sum strategic, integration and enduring to deal wib our life! it is nort simple.but, i m just gg tu do tt. simply cant stand my life to b in such a mess. it reali stress me up and makes life so miserable and meaningless fer me.

shall end my post here. hab been super uber long winded todae ..
hahas. simply just hab too much of tots for todaes talk. inspired and motivated ?

lastly. thks to dear, whu accompany me bak to sec sch todae. early in ta morn and even endure my request of gg to the talk. thks. and i lurb u l0ts. =)

gdnite ppl.=D

projects in poly nvr ends ?

2007-07-20T07:23:00.000-07:00

todae was the project submission for the iiso. A darn difficult modules which i heard killed loads of ppl. Rumours were saeing tt this modules fails loads of ppl and causes dem strain to proceed to the nex sem.. how horrible.

phew~ anywae, another project is down at the moment. 2 more projects on hand nw.. which is mainly, carc which is due on mondae, and the other one, prsp. JAVA PROGRAMMING! the KILLER! awws. i totally dont uds wads gg on with all those java script. im so dead meat.

oh ya, interesting event awaits me tmr. hahas. it is my sec sch carnival tmr. the main objective is to bring bak the ex students of the sch and celeb fer..hmms. =S nort sure ? hahas. shall update u all wib ta info wen i get dere tmr ? =D

and i finally submitted my apology letter fer the idiotic adventure learning club. fuking hell. v are actually force tu write the apology letter just for the sake tt v didnt attend the program. wtf!
kiies, so i went damn pissed off with the arrogant request. they simply wasnt realistic and resonable at all larhs. How the hell can they force us to go fer ta program wen v do not wished to? and ... FORCE us to write a letter of apology wen v nr attend. damn ta stupidd asshole who ask us to did tt. YEAPS! " why you sign up fer ta prog" tish was a question made compulsory fer us to ans in the letter of apology. cum on.c ta pt? v are force to.=-=simply no brain cells la. stupidd question posted by sum1 tupidd. zz

oh, and i hab been REALI honest okayys, i just went shooting bak at dem with the qns they posted.

1) why u sign up.
my ans: v dont have a second choice. and v re force to.
2) why did u absent yourself.
my ans : i didnt even sign up.duhhs.i didnt even took the trouble to hand up the form. and the prog is held so early in the morn. which dumbo wants to cum ar ? human are living mammels. they nd their slpp. =-=

LOLS. =x

happi burfdae to dear dear .

2007-07-19T08:21:00.000-07:00

ish july 19 ! happi 19th burfdae to deardear =D

bought a billabong wallet fer him. =) hope he lky it . tot fer so long le den decides to buy tish de larhs. oh ya, thks to all ta comments from yijun, michael , kenvin ..hmms . my gf! haas. reali appreciate u all gibing me ideas on wad tuh gib him. LOLS. i m so nort creative la.
so after much much tots, decide to buy a wallet fer him. cus tink tt was at least useful to him ? =)

and i finished class at 1.30pm todae. darn early. hab tu wait fer him till 5pm. so yea, 3 hrs plus plus were spared to me. hahas. spent those ttymes rushing thru my iiso project.

and i rushed to tm at ard 4 ?. went dere especially to buy a cake fer him =D
iish a ice cream cookies n creme cake frm swensens =).

but.. swensens actually dun provide any knives wen u purchase ta cake ?..zz. v ended up eating ta cake desperately la. hahas. oh ya, ta burfdae celeb was held at ta highest lvl of my house de block. pro rite. zz. no choice la.

wateva~ i was extremely contented wen i heard him saying tt he lurbs all ta tinks i prepared fer him and he lurbs ta person who prepared all these even more. =) all the tireness of rushing bak and forth frm tm to sch simply just worn off wen he said these. i m reali glad tt he appreciates all these. cus i hab been rather uncomfortable all the while la. wrying tt he might not lky tish and tt.

hais..TUESDAY!

2007-06-19T08:57:00.000-07:00

and i didnt went for cheerleading today again! wth. dun0 wad the hell is gg wrg wib me. been postponing and delaying myself from gg tuh cheerleading practice since dun0 h0w l0ng ag0 le. i HATE myself doing tish ! =( aww. yarhs . but , todae i collect my brand new lappy ler. hees. so HAPPI yeas. but finding the place tuh collect it was hell larhs.
went wib my bf in search of it , ard v end up losing our wae in henderson r0ad. WTH ? LOLS. s= nvm larhs. ard bf! i lurb u so much! thx fer pei-ing~ me todae.ah bo, i will b found mising in sg again ..hahas. ghees. oh yesh. ta promise i made to u last nite. i w0nt break it again lerh. mwaks. lurbs =)

♥s0meh0w, she found her way back.

2007-06-10T22:42:00.000-07:00

finally backed to bl0gging. ♥ gf!. i kept my pr0mish tuh u okayy. d0rts larhs, f0rced me to bl0g. yea, though i hab been creating bl0gs over ard over again in the past, ii didnt reali maintain dem l0ng. reason being, im t00 lasie tuh update dem .=D True enuf, i d0nt knw h0w l0ng this bl0gg is gg tuh last though. hais, just received a msg tt inform me abt ta cheerleading practice commercing tmr.warhs, fan larhs. wanted so much tuh g0, but cant? cos i hab alreali pr0mish my ballet mates tuh go out on tt dae. and im alwaes the one who postpone this gathering larhs. cant possibly wan me t0 d0 tt again rite. i pr0bably end up being stangeld tuh dealth.=( hhas. n0rt tt i d0n lky cheerleading larhs, hais. nvm. pr0mish and swear tt i wld go on thur. hab been missing so many practices of Cheerleading le, either gibing dem ta reasons tt my pr0jects are dueing blah blah blah or just left ta reas0n unsaid. ew. felt so bad abt it. YIPPS. g0na mit my gf in town nw fer our sh0pping spree nw! hhaa, i miss her s0 MUCH can!♥lurbbs. =)