♥ and so school starts..
honestly, i am not very glad with my new schedule. mon - thur (9am - 6pm). just the thought of this, brings me fear and tiredness.
More than anything else, i am afraid that i cant cope with the stress from sschhol works. i knew i am being over concerned and too kan chionggg. but i just knew that i aint going to disappoint myself for allowing myself to feel like a damn tap of broken mess....
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working environment had not been great recently. politics..rumors..gossips..
Honestly, I'm very disappointed in how you've dealt with everything.
In the midst of all that complexity, there was also inner peace and sheer happiness, while you tried to listen & believe in me, which is also the key reason to why I'm still holding on to this work. i felt that i am a walking contridiction to what i had last said. Honestly, i can just leave if i am unhappy with the job. Yes, i can... but why should i do that if my consience is so clear?
my dear, i know you're tryiing to protect me from any harms..i know i am stubborn..i know it might be hurting to youu..for not taking in your advices at tymes...i aint trying to prove anything by holding on to this job. but i am really not truly to quit any job with my name unclearedd. yea, it may seem that i am a person who like to save 'face' for myself. but seriously, i just dont like my name to be smudged with dirtyness, so much so that even it aint anyone close to me...i still want my name clean...
Amidst being entangled in warped situations, things seem to be charging towards a light; a ray so uncertain yet sure, one that sets my soul ablaze with hope yet ironically brims with ferocious darkness and unfounded fear. No matter what, i am holding on, i wanted to see the truth being surfaces...no matter how long it may takes. i truely believes...it takes time for the truth to surface.. yes. it must be.
my dear friends and boy, i am so happy that after so many things, all of euu still believed and still gave me urs trust. thanks so much for believing in me.
Guilt will always be, by far, the worst emotion to deal with...
At the end of everynight, it is only love that I can't deny.
i am looking forward to nov 1 :)) i am finally visiting singapore flyer for the first tyme, thank you, my dear..
my new found love from Guess. Damn Gucci inspired!
I swear the pictures don't do any justice.. There's only so much photographs could do..
thaank you, dear, for buying that for me secretly.
